When I Love You | Renjun [✓]

[Extra Chapter] The last straw.

Hendery point of view. Hendery focused. Written in bahasa and broken english. Please forgive me for the typo(s) and grammatical eror. Don't forget to vote and please spam this page with comment if u enjoy the story i made. LOVE, cindereyna. 

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For the umpteenth time, I was disappointed. I was so disappointed that I wanted to burn this city so that she burned in it and became ashes that I could sprinkle in the vast ocean.

I still remember the look in her eyes on me when I said 'I'm fine.' Like, DAMN DUDE! Who's fine after being rejected by someone you love? at that moment, all I wanted to do was punch her in the face, or kiss her. or maybe both. but I seemed to be caught in her tears. She is so sincere. I mean, sincerely don't love me. Yep, gue berada di puncak komedi.

but that's not surprising anymore because actually, my life is comedy and comedy is my life. Then do I always laugh? yup! But that's not mean I'm happy with my life. (Maybe I could as well be 'Joker' if I wanted to.)

I went home after that day. Liu opened the door for me, he asked if I was drunk or not and I just said yes. But that piece of shit, I mean Luke, seemed to be able to guess what the mess was on my face. He laughed. Gue sebenernya bisa aja dengan sabar lanjut pergi ke kamar dan tidur, tapi ngapain harus bersabar kalo bisa nonjok dadanya sampe bunyi intro netflix?

"Hahahahah, but seriously, I guess you guys will at least have a hot night at the motel." Kata Luke, masih ngakak.

"Well, I'm rejected." Jawab gue sok kuat.

"Rejected for what? Asking her to motel?" Liu's confused face makes me want to slap him even more

"Do you really think I like a girl for sex ONLY?"

"For the god shake, nobody know. Lu kan ga pernah pacaran serius."

"It's because I haven't found the right girl yet."

"But the right girl won't reject you." Luke ketawa lagi.

"Calm down, dude. You better drink. You look so messy." Liu kembali dari dapur sambil bawa beberapa botol minuman beralkohol. Itung-itung ngerayain hari lulusan mereka. Gue inget Jun bilang kalo dia bakalan datang ke rumah ini malem ini tapi dia belum muncul juga. Nggak ada yang dia dimana dan kenapa. Apa sibuk karena kerja part-timenya atau hal lainnya.

My alcohol tolerance is not that strong. In fact, I get drunk quickly and when I do, more terrible things happen. So far, the worst thing is that I jog in the middle of the night using only boxers.

You know, it's hard to be normal when your whole family has weird personalities and is a little crazy too. I've always tried to act like the perfect guy, like the rich-cool boy that all the bitches on American television want, but I'm just too out of the box.

It's hard to be a westerner if you have a very strong Asian gene in your body. It's not that being Asian is wrong, it's just that you will feel that you are too conspicuous to be a European citizen.

Parisians are annoying. But better because they won't disturb your life any more. They just won't like it if you speak a lot of English, especially in French, but to be honest, for me, speaking French is very inconvenient. It doesn't mean I can't. I obviously can, but for some reason I prefer to speak English more. Utowo jowo soale when you are mad, like super 1000% angry, it's better to say Jancok than Fuck you. There are feelings that cannot be described in English or French. That feeling is called 'Legowo'

Okay, back to topic. Malam itu gue mabuk. Nggak begitu mabuk sih, masih bisa berpikir dengan jelas dan masih bisa jalan tegak (walau tiga kali nabrak tembok dan satu kali hampir minum air dari WC.( udah gue lepehin lagi)) I can still say that I'm fine.