Winters War

Chapter 26:

~Blue's POV~

He holds me tightly as I cry, my tears quickly soaking in to the fabric of his shirt. The smell of his cologne seeps into my nose, no matter how runny it was becoming. I feel as if my chest is struggling to grasp any air. "Shhhh it's okay Blue."he says softly, his hand beginning to gently run up and down my back.

"It's okay Blue, it was just another nightmare. I'm here, I'm right here." I felt my heart pounding and this cold sweat floods my body as my eyes opened. Bucky held me close, his hair brushing the sides of his face as he looks down at me. I turn to him, his eyes piercing through the dark. For some reason I can't seem to form any words. My mouth feels dry and my throat feels like it's closing in.

"Everything will be alright. I'm here." My fingers brush my cheeks feeling this dampness coating them. "I'm okay, I'm okay."I whisper. He doesn't say anything in response. "Remember that night we went to that club to get some random mafia guy." "Yeah I remember that night." "Thats what it was about. I remember them telling me to dance with him. They...they wanted me to dance with him so we could sneak off. That was the first time I ever saw you shoot anyone. That was the first time since I met you that you were the Winter Soldier and not my Bucky."

I can see his jaw clench even in the dark. "Bucky...you don't think those words...". "No those words won't ever bring him back." "How do you know?" "I just know."he says before he kisses my forehead. His arms pull me closer trying to take away any space left between us. "You're safe with me, now and forever."

My cries have stopped for now but I can't seem to let go of Bucky. Everything in me just feels right. I feel whole again. "We should probably head back."he says softly, "we don't want Sam and Zemo asking questions." "Yeah you're right."I say as I pull away.

There is mostly silence as we walk back. For some reason my stomach is filled with anxiety. Why? He's my husband, I shouldn't feel anxious around him. I am happy for him though. I'm glad the soldier is gone and maybe now I have a chance to get my Bucky back. "Bucky." He doesn't say anything to me, he just keeps walking forward. He didn't bother to even look at me.

"I'm really happy for you. I truly mean that. I know how hard it was for you to go through that and on top of that you did it alone. In the end I'm not even mad at you. I'm incredibly proud of you Buck. I'm also sorry for everything. I'm sorry for not telling you about the serum, and for getting upset, and for taking everything out on you. That was wrong of me."

More silence. I don't know why I thought he would smile or make some sort of gesture, but instead there is just silence. It's then this light bulb goes off in my head. Quickly I grab his jacket and push him onto a wall. "Blue what the hell are you doing?" I don't say anything and just smash my lips to his. My fingers comb through his hair as my other hand rest on his neck.

After a few seconds his hands grab my hips and pull me into him. The minute my body is fully pressed against his his arms fully wrap around my waist. This wave of relief washes over me as he deepens the kiss, his hands grasping the sides of my face. The world seems to stop spinning for just a split second. My heart pounds in my chest, it pounds so hard I can practically feel it trying to leap from my chest.

       Slowly he pulls away from me, his nose brushing mine. My eyes remain closed as I listen to a breathing. It's uneven as we try to collect ourselves. "We should go."he whispers and before I know it he pushes off the wall and walks away, leaving me standing in the ally alone.