Winters War

Chapter 33:

       My finger tips run over this warm, soft fabric. My eyes feel too heavy to open, my head is throbbing, and my chest feels as if it's struggling to rise and fall. Suddenly I feel this warm, gentle touch on my neck. I wince because no matter how gentle it was the pain of nearly being chocked to death was very much so there. "I should fucking kill him."he whispers, as if he didn't want anyone to hear.

       Slowly I open my eyes. Bucky sits beside me. His head now resting on the bed. Carefully I begin running my fingers through his hair. A small moan leaves his lips telling me it feels good. "Well hello to you too."I smirk. "Hey, glad to see you're awake."he says as he sits up. "How did I get here?"I ask, the pain beginning to creepy in. "Well after we got separated, Sam and I found each other. We heard gun shots. When we got there both you and Zemo were on the ground."he pauses for a moment before continuing, "Blue what happened?"

    I don't say anything for a moment, instead I slowly force myself to sit up. "I lost her. Then I heard gun shots going off and followed the sound. When I got there Zemo had a gun pointed at her, blue vials were scattered on the floor and he smashed them. I tried talking him down but Karli took off. Then Walker threw the shield and.." "Walker?"he interrupts, "he said he saw Zemo attack you so he took him out with the shield."

      "What? No. He hit Zemo with it. I stepped in but he grabbed me by my throat and slammed me against the wall a couple times." Anger consumes Bucky's face. "I don't know what happened after that, I only know what you just told me." I watch as his jaw clenches. "I should fucking kill that son of a bitch."he says angrily.

       Quickly he stands but I grab his hand. "No, Bucky" he pauses for a moment as I keep holding him, "please stay." He doesn't say anything as he sits back down, this time on the bed beside me. Slowly he leans over pressing his forehead to mine. "I'm not going anywhere." My eyes drift from mine back down. "I remember when I did this too you."he says softly.

       "Did I do this to you?"he asks me. Carefully he brushes strands of hair away from my neck. The bruising on my throat is very apparent now. "Yeah, you did. It's okay though because I did this" as gently as I can I brush the stab wound I gave him. He flinch's in pain. There is this look of guilt in his eyes. I know he didn't mean it but I also know that no matter what I say right now it won't make him feel any better for hurting me.

       "Yeah I remember."I say softly. He pulls away from me, his eyes never leaving the black and blue bruising. I can tell by the look in his eyes he's thinking about everything. "Bucky?" He still doesn't look at me. "Buck, look at me." I gently take his hands in mine. "You won't do this too me. I know you won't because you could never hurt me." His eyes slowly flicker back to me.  "I know you would never do this."

      As much as I don't want to I take his metal hand in mine, slowly I swallow all of my fear and place his hand right over the bruise. His eyes grow wide, fear beginning to cover them. "You won't hurt me. I trust you."I tell him. I try to cover the nervousness in my own voice, my breathing is becoming uneven. The fear causes tears to want to spill from the rims of my eyes. "I trust you."I whisper.

      Instead he moves his hand from my throat to my face and pulls me into him. The kiss is gentle and tender, it's filled with love and compassion. This is the Bucky I remember, not the Bucky that I have stabbed in the heart time and time again. This is my Bucky.

       Our foreheads rest on each other's for a while. This makes me miss home. It makes me miss our life, not our superhero life but the one we made together.

       The fire crackled and sparked as we lay tangled together in blankets. "How do you feel Mrs.Barnes."he asks me. His voice vibrates through his chest as I listen to his heartbeat. "Like I'm the luckiest girl in the world." I smile as I look up at the stars. This shine so nightly in the sky, it looks as if someone had sewn diamonds into black silk. They were just stunning.

      "I wouldn't say luckiest."he responds. "Hey, I'm the luckiest girl in the world because I say I'm the luckiest girl in the world. And besides it's true because no one else is married to you."I say as I sit up just slightly to look at him, "I mean it. I am so totally in love with you James Buchanan Barnes that it's crazy." "So this camping trip for our honeymoon wasn't..." "I love it here. Its peaceful and so beautiful. I wouldn't want to be anywhere else and if I was somewhere else as long as I was with you then I would be happy."

       This smile falls on his lips as he gently grasps my chin and pulls me into kiss him.  My fingers gently grasp the side of his face as I pull him into me. Carefully he is rolls over top of me, his lips trailing down my already exposed skin before returning to my lips. No matter where we were as long has he was there then I was home.

       "Do you need anything?"he asks me as he stands. "No, actually I think I'll join you." "Really? You feel strong enough to do that?"he asks. "Hey I feel strong enough to kick your ass."I tease. I'm starting to feel normal when I'm around him again. Slowly but surly I am getting there.