Hidden Secrets (Jelena)

Chapter 25

It took me a while to pick out a book but when I did, I was so glad I found 'The Fault In Our Stars' although that book is overrated and I have watched the movie, I still want to read the book because I have never read it nor did I find a better book in the library of my interest.

Justin was still looking for a book and so I decided I would help him since I was done.

"How about this one?" I asked.

"No, it seems so depressing," He sighed.

I laughed but put the book back where I found it.

"I like this one," He said, picking out a book that had a knife on the cover.

Of course.

My mind was now torturing me for the deal I made with him earlier. Why had I become so careless? How many times will it take for me to get to hurt to realize that maybe people don't change? This could all be an act for all I know.

"So intense, but alright sign it out," I said, walking to the computers.

"Well, it has 229 pages, bet you won't finish it," I teased him, flicking through the pages of his books.

"Ea-sy!" He chuckled.

"Right," I laughed as we signed out our books.

"So, you want to go to my dorm and read?" He asked.

"It's reading Justin, I think it's better if we do it alone" I laughed "Or we won't be able to focus"

"Geek," He teased me.

I rolled my eyes sarcastically and then walked away to my room.

"Wait!" He called.

"Be ready at 8 tomorrow," He said, grabbing my arm.

"Why?" I asked, confused.

"It's our date and you're coming with me because I shouldn't have to do a project to take you out," He said, pulling me closer to his chest.

And now my heart felt like it was going to break out of my chest.

"Well you have to earn it Justin," I said.

I gulped as his gaze at me intensified. His eyes were focused on my lips and I felt my consciousness slipping away.

I feel so nervous standing so close to him, it makes my stomach twist.

My stomach even got this new feeling that I had never felt before, it was ticklish, and it felt like something rising up.

"So, I'll see you tomorrow at 8," he smirked and placed a kiss on my cheek, but really close to my lips.

Why am I such a mess?

And with that, he walked away leaving me stunned.

I felt my cheeks blush as I replayed what had just happened.

When we first kissed, I didn't feel anything but this time he just kissed my cheek and it caused my body to react in a different way...why?

He's an asshole. I tried to remind myself.

A cute asshole though.

I realized I was smiling like an idiot, so I turned to face the floor and continued to walk back to my room, punishing myself by mentally slapping myself internally.

"Hey," Katie said, she was laying on her stomach on the bed.

"Hey, have you been crying? Your eyes look swollen," I said, dropping my bag on the floor and walking over to her.

She sniffed and tried to find the courage to talk.

"Is it Luke?" I asked, rubbing her back in circles.

She nodded her head.

"You miss him?" I asked and earned another nod from her.

"I can't believe he would just throw me away; I feel so stupid. I miss him so much and every time I see him in the hallways, I just can't even bring myself to look at him," She cried.

"It's hard, I know," I said, quietly as I put my arm around her, circling her back.

"Is it okay with you if I go talk to him about something right now?" I asked.

"Don't tell him I was crying; he'll think I'm weak," She said, her eyes widening with hope.

"I won't," I smiled "I just want to know how he's holding up without you."

She nodded her head in approval.

"Look don't cry please," I said and turned the T.V on for her.

"Watch T.V, you'll feel better" I smiled and threw the remote to her.

"Okay," she said, and I walked out.

Now I have to look for Luke, where can he be?

I decided to check his dorm, that he shared with Justin, and surprisingly, I found Justin reading the book he signed out earlier.

"Looks like you want to go on a date now?" Justin raised a brow.

"That's not why I'm here," I laughed "I'm actually looking for Luke"

"Luke? Why?" He said, dropping the book.

"You said he wanted to apologize... and I have to talk to him about Katie," I replied.

"Oh, well he's probably smoking near the park or something," He mumbled.

"Well then I'll talk to him later," I said, disappointed.

I had finally built up the courage to talk to Luke and now I bet it'll fade soon. I can be so weird...

"If you're scared to go, I can come with you," Justin said.

"That might be okay," I smiled nervously.

"Let's go," He returned the smile, "And this time, I'll be on your side."

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We found Luke, where Justin had assumed, and he was smoking with three other guys.

"Yo Luke, c'mere," Justin said, pulling him out of his little smoking session.

"Selena, hey good to see you again," He said, smirking.

I hate him with a passion.

"Okay, hate me all you want but I need to know how you feel about Katie," I blurted.

He flinched at the sound of her name and threw his cigarette to the ground.

"Why should I tell you?" He asked.

"Answer the fucking question man," Justin said to Luke.

"Well yeah, I miss her," He admitted "A lot."

"That's all you have to say?" I asked.

"Listen, there's a lot I regret and trust me I didn't even know how much I loved her until she left me. I miss her so much and I don't even know why I would go for another girl when she was there with me," He said, looking at the ground. I wondered if I was hallucinating but I could swear there were tears in his eyes he was attempting to blink away.

"I sound so fucking shitty when I say that...'cause I've never felt like this for any other girl," He chuckled.

"What would you do if you got another chance from Katie?" I asked, and when I did, his facelifted, and he looked me in the eyes.

"I would not make her regret it."

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