Hidden Secrets (Jelena)

Chapter 48

My father insisted that I stayed for dinner and I agreed without hesitation. 

It was nice. No tension while we ate, just laughter and smiles. It was almost as if things were back to the way they were. The only difference was that the chair that my step mother was sitting on would have been where my mother would have sat.

After thanking them for dinner, I decided it was time for me to leave. 

I arrived at campus when the sun was setting and I got this weird feeling in my heart that made me want to not go to my dorm. 

I have so many memories with Justin in that room. That was where we first actually started to talk.

Regret washed over me and I tried not to beat myself over it. Things happen and we need to learn to forget.

Most importantly, I wanted to forgive myself, for giving into Justin. For not knowing better.

Building up my courage, I went to my room and headed straight to my bed.

"Your back!" Katie's voice alarmed me.

I laughed, "You're here for once."

She shot me a look I couldn't quite understand, but then she smiled, "How was your day?"

Well she seems to be really happy.

"Good...no, great," I answered, "I mean it was bad at first but it got better."

"That's good. Now ask me," she said.

Of course.

I playfully rolled my eyes, "How was your day Katie?"

"Fucking awesome!" She said all at once, "So I was in class this morning right? And this new guy walked in and sat right beside me. Like I didn't even have to do anything! He just came and sat beside me. Fuck, he was so hot. You need to see him and his freaking muscles, oh my go-"

"Wait, what happened to Luke?" I questioned before she went on.

She shot me a death stare, "That's old news."

I decided to not press the topic any further and motioned for her to go on.

"So anyways, he was so hot and all right? I didn't even bother hiding my smile because I was just so happy for some next fucking reason. Well then he started talking to me about where he came from and blah blah blah. But the next thing I knew was, the bell rang and we had to go to different classes. But wait, here's the best part."

"Tell me!" I was getting excited now.

"He asked me if I wanted to go out with him sometime," She squealed, "He asked so politely and he was just so nice about it. He was like, 'I understand if you're not interested or if you already have someone else you like,' like holy shit. And yeah I said yes because I can't remember the last time I had a talked to a boy so comfortably." 

"Okay. Well wow. This is a lot to take in," I chuckled.

Questions were running through my head. I thought her and Luke were getting better?

"I'm happy for you, I am," I said at last and her smile widened even more.

"I might sound like a bitch when I say this but I'm kind of glad that Luke is behind me. This might actually be a good idea, you know?"

"You guys are done for real?" I asked.

She nodded, "It was complicated, you know? Whatever it was, it felt too good to be true. I'm finally over it. Over him..." Her voice trailed off.

I forced a smile for her, "So, when I do I get to meet this new guy?"

Her smile brightened, "His name is Ty."

I nodded.

"If I'm lucky, you'll meet him real soon."

"Good. Well I'm gonna go to sleep. Had a heck of a day," I said at last.

"Okay, goodnight!"

~*~

I woke up to the sound of my alarm ringing. 

Finally, shutting it off, I hopped off my bed and got ready for class.

I had this intense feeling in my stomach. I was going to see Justin in English today. I know we are broken up but it's going to take so much to just ignore him.

How fast things can change.

I glanced at the time, I was running late so I just grabbed an apple and walked to class.

Just relax.

I kept telling myself.

The warning bell had already rung and I made it to my class right on time.

Everyone was already sat in their seats and I frowned when I saw that there was only one seat available. Beside my ex.

You've got to be kidding me.

I didn't want him to think he had control over me, so I walked towards the empty seat with confidence. You know, head up, straight posture and all.

He was staring at me with an expression I couldn't understand. However, I shook it off and focused on the teacher in front of me.

"This is how it ends? You're just going to pretend that you don't know me?" He whispered.

Why does this have to be so difficult.

He hurt me. 

I ignored him.

"You don't want to resolve this? We're just done?" He continued.

Shut up.

The teacher instructed the class to work on a worksheet she had handed out.

I pulled out my headphones and blasted my music. 

Justin eventually gave up on trying to get me to talk to him and continued on with his work. Every once in a while, I would see him trying to copy my answers. I didn't bother covering my page. I didn't care.

The entire class, I was so fed up. 

Having him so close to me made me feel so many emotions all at once. It felt like my body was rejecting me.

I was well aware of how much he had hurt my feelings. I got out of my shell for him. I dated him, fuck, I even started to love him. All that time, it turned out it wasn't what I thought.

Suddenly, Justin pulled out my left earbud.

"I want to talk."

No.

I pulled the earbud from his hands and put it back in my ear. Of course, he pulled it out again.

"Justin, this is not a game. Just stop okay? This isn't something you can solve with a sorry or a small conversation. You can't expect me to just move on so fast." I finally said.

"You're pissed and I get that. But let me make it up to you." 

"You can't. How am I supposed to trust you?" I snapped.

For a second, I thought he was hurt by my words but instead he smirked and said, "Fine."

~*~

A/N: SORRY FOR TAKING SO LONG TO UPDATE. FKG HIGH SCHOOL. SO MUCH DRAMA AND WORK. Just don't even get me started.

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-Ariee xx