Blood Rose || A Collection Of my Poetry: Pt. 2

I will never be a God

A God has many definitions but we
Can all agree that being a God means you have power --------------------------------------------------------------------------

A God is what I wanted to be
I was raised to think I was better
Then anyone
I was raised to believe I was meant
To be on a throne of the bones of
All the people that got in my way
I was raised to control everything
For I am God

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I thought everything had influence
Off of my actions I thought it'd all
Be ok I thought I'd be God
With no mortal consequences
I thought I could play God
And sit above it all in the clouds

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I thought I could do no wrong
I thought I was perfect

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But the things I've done to achieve
That elusive throne that aren't even
humane I'd much rather
Die then confess to these sins

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I felt I was so close to getting what I was
Raised to want but it all got set back
And now I'm trying desperately to
Climb up a hole made in the ground
But evreytime I latch on to the wall the
Dirt tumbles and the whole gets deeper and
Deeper

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It hurts so much and I was raised not
To feel but yet again that all failed
My family's efforts failed and
Now I'm not the brightest jewel
In the crown

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I became imperfect so I get thrown
Out to the pack of wolves who
Maul me

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They tear me apart has I'm screaming
For help but nobody hears me this
Cold winter's night
My blood is staining the ground has one
Of these ferocious beasts tears out
My jugular

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I pray to whatever listens in my dying
Seconds but nobody saves me I don't
Become God I was human afteral

I failed them so they left me to die.

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Now I'm six feet under and a corpse
All the efforts were useless and I Wasted my entire life just to find out

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That I will never be a God

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