I'm kinda proud of myself
Although I need to cutback on my nicotine consumption
Although I only smoke every few days
I haven't really stalked him
Nor wrote about him
Nor fantasized
Nor post
I haven't really been begging for her
Love like a dog
Nor obsessed over her
Nor flirted with her
Nor post
I'm kinda proud of myself
I've been taking care of myself
Despite not feeling hunger/being disgusted
By the thought of food I still eat
I drink multiple bottles of water a day
I've been showering alot
Bathing alot
Brushing my teeth more
I'm kinda proud of myself
In a sense I'm finding new things I like too
I'm kinda proud of myself
Is it really just a form of mania?
Where I think I'm fine but I'm really
So bad?
I'm kinda proud of myself
I've been free of self harming for
11 months
16 days
9 hours
9 minutes
5 seconds
But suddenly I remember the way it felt sawing at my arm with a dull kitchen knife
The almost tranquility
I'm kinda proud of myself
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Blood Rose || A Collection Of my Poetry: Pt. 2
PoetryA whole bunch of my poems since like 2021 also the reason its considered mature is because most of the poems are very deep and/or triggering yes I did copy and paste the description from rose thorns but changed the year (Quick thingy the series migh...
