live a little - j.birch

t w e n t y - f i v e

my hair stuck to my forehead as well as my bare shoulders and arms as i held destiny's hands and swayed to the music which vibrated through us. we both had lopsided grins plastered on our faces as the pills we took had came in full force now. the boys were competitively playing some video game, their full attention on it. for some reason, they both played loads better when intoxicated.

"i love you des." my eyes locked on with destiny's, both of them being mainly pupil as pills made them dilated. her lips curled up as she flashed her teeth.

"i love you too bells. i'm so glad we're friends." ah, the magical power of the drugs we had consumed: the love bug that took over your very being. everything felt much softer and lighter and just lovely. sometimes what you said was the truth, though it could also come out exaggerated. you was also very likely to talk your about whole life with anyone who will listen, which is usually any other person also on pills.

"same! i needed something nice. don't ever leave des. not even for some cute girl with bright hair, okay?" we sat on the floor, facing each other with our legs crossed. destiny had just been passed the blunt that ollie had rolled.

"i won't. judds an idiot. what does that girl have that you don't?" she ran a hand through her hair, eyes rolling back slightly but she caught them before it turned into a full on gurn. i pouted slightly.

"i know. it's so annoying. i wasn't even looking to meet anyone like that after bradley. i just wanted to feel like a real person again, you know? instead of a robot just doing a mans requests." i huffed, accepting the joint that was offered to me. i took a puff as destiny spoke.

"i get you! boys are so trash! judd seemed to always be different since he spent time with you though. now it's like the old him is back. and trust me, he fucks over any woman in sight." i gasped at her words, realisation fluttering through me.

"you and judd!" she nodded sheepishly, to which i just hugged her tightly.

"you know what, let's give him a piece of our minds! he can't get away with this!" i pulled out my phone and dialed his number, waiting for a response from the other line.

"voicemail." i rolled my eyes, waiting for the beep.

"listen here judd birch! i'm with my girl des and we are just sick of you! you can't just treat us women like we're your sex toys until you wanna throw a fit and run away! we deserve more than that and as a payback, i'm gonna let des show me what a real orgasm looks like because we all know you-" i was cut off by the answer machine filling up. i hung up and threw the phone to the side, practically panting with laughter at what i said.

"bit of girl on girl, aye?" tye sent a wink our way, to which we flipped him off.

"only if you both get some guy on guy going on." destiny snickered. we all laughed together, and it felt really nice just to have some friends who didn't feel as perfect as leah or as mind fucky as judd. i loved leah so much, it's just i needed to work through some things right now and her goody goody nature isn't what's gonna help right now. i needed to push some limits. and that's what i fully planned on doing.

"shots?" i offered everyone, seeing ollie pluck four more pills from his baggy. he passed them around whilst i prepared the shots to take with them. we all clinked our drinks together before swallowing the burning liquid along with the bad tasting pill. tye began setting up another joint. one thing i had realised is that i almost always fancied a joint but never seemed to feel the effect from it so i was just rolling and rolling.

"don't suppose you could sell me some of that tye?" i questioned him, slapping on a smile hoping it would help him say yes.

"of course. where was you getting it before?" he turned away from the joint he was rolling and gave me his full attention. that was another thing, a joint could take anywhere from 2 minutes to half an hour because of how easily distracted you became when inebriated.

"well judd but before him bradley wouldn't tell me who he picked up from." he grinned at this news, returning to his grinder.

"bradley's one of my best customers. small world aye." destiny slapped him up the head at his pathetic excuse for flirting.

"would you leave the poor girl alone? i don't think she wants to get on her knees for party favours," a pounding sound at the door ended that conversation. ollie waltzed up to it, a huge grin plastered on his face. it faltered at the sight of a certain black and blue haired individual.

"i can't believe you guys are actually letting her take drugs with you." judd grumbled as he barged past and walked straight up to me. he held my shoulders as he examined me, probably checking i wasn't dying in any way. i frowned up at him.

"you gave me drugs before judd." i reminded him, rolling my eyes a little.

"yeah but i actually looked after you." he snapped back, refusing to make eye contact with me.

"stop trying to rescue me all the time. i'm not some fragile little girl who needs a knight in shining armour." destiny wondered over to us and slung her arm round my shoulders. she poked judds chest with her pointer finger and frowned up at him.

"you made your choice. go be with her." destiny had gone through what i had gone through. judd fucked her then fucked off. she knew how i was feeling and clearly didn't want judd making it any worse. judd open and closed his mouth a few times, clearly trying to find the right words to say but failing to think of them. instead he stormed out of the house, slamming the door behind him with all his might. i thought it might fall off its hinges with the amount it rattled but it didn't. we all sat in silence for a minute.

"he's such a jackass." tye commented. i sighed and rubbed my temples.

"he's a jackass but i think i love him."