Lover, leaver

Five.

The show was today, at the first bank amphitheater in Nashville. I was more nervous that anything. The fans have no idea that I'm the designer AND the photographer. I had woken up around six AM and headed out to the trailer to put the finishing touches on my dress. it was more of a classical music type day, so that was, in fact, what was blaring through the fabric trailer by eight AM.
"ARE YOU DEAF- You know we can hear the music all the way in the house right" I turn the music off and turn around.
"Sorry, I didn't realize -" I say looking up from my project. "Sam- actually you are just the person I wanted to see." I say.
"What do you want?" He asks almost harsh enough to make me step back.
"Someone is cranky this morning- JESUS" I roll my eyes.
"I wanted your opinion on something" I start. "Give me just a second." I say.  I come back out in a silk dress. I turn around" what do you think?" I ask.
"I like it." He sighs. "not that I care - but, it's nice. If you don't need me for anything else Barbie, I'm going back in the house" he turns to open the door. "FUCK" I hear him jiggle the door handle." It's locked, I can't get it open."he says. "This ISNT funny Kenna dammit"
"You think I locked it?" I raise my voice.
"Who else could've?" he yells.
"Well it wasn't me so you can stop being a little prick about it. It's locked from the outside." I say harshly.
"I'm NOT a prick Kenna. You are just a spoiled little shit. " he says. I gasp. That was one of the harshest things he has ever said to me.
"why do you insist on taking everything out on me Sam? What did I do to you? it was Danny that made you give me up. you had years to fix this. You had years to tell me how you felt. Did you ever stop for a second to think I fucking loved you too?" I say scooting down the wall. anger filled my entire body.
"Kenna." Sam said scooting down next to me. I turn away from him. 
"We were so close once Sam. if you loved me back then, why didn't you tell me huh?" I say. Before Sam could answer my question " if I was so important to you, why didn't you try harder instead of being rude and mean to me all these years Sammy?"
"I- Kenna. I did try, you just didn't acknowledge that it was me. I sent you a card, every birthday, every Valentine's Day. why do you think I agreed to come to every event that you had- not to intrude but to watch you because you were so beautiful to me in every way. You still are Kenna bar." He said with one breath. "I bought the necklace" he puts his hand to my neck lifting the necklace."have you ever flipped it over?" He asked. I take it off and flip the silver sparrow over. "S.k." I read. "Sam I never realized. I never take it off." I say
"I know, I noticed it when I seen you at the airport."
He said. "I had my initials put on it so you would always have a piece of me. I loved you. I still do." he put his hand to my jaw. "Sam. " before I knew, I leaned it. Slamming my face into sams. I ran my fingers through his hair. I pull away. "I loved you too. After all these years, through the screaming and yelling-" he kissed me again picking me up off the floor. "I still do. My feelings for you have never changed." I could feel him smile through the kiss.
"Give is another chance. Please Kenna." He states.
"can we be best friends again." I ask.
"Only if you will give me another chance. Let me make our friendship right." He says.
I nod my head as he picks me up and spins me around. I let out a loud giggle. suddenly we hear the door jiggle. It was Jake- unlocking the door.
"How long have you two been in here? We have to be at our venue in two hours. We need the outfits." Jake says.
"We've been in here since 7 AM." Sam says.
"here are the out fits. let's head to the venue" I say.
We all get into the suv and head to the venue.
"Kenna! Come sit with us at sound check!" Sam says.
"If it's okay with all of you" I say.
"Yes come on-" josh says.
" FIVE MINUTES TILL SOUND CHECK"
the boys rush on stage. the next hour was filled with goofing off and joshs vocals. I brought my camera to get a few shots of the boys having fun. I sat at the corner of the stage, taking it all in.
"Welp. We've got three hours before the show. What do you guys wanna do-" Danny asks.
"Take a nap." Jake yawns.
"I'm gonna go get a drink and a bite to eat-" josh says.
"I don't know, Kenna what do you wanna do?"  Sam looks over at me.
"I think I'm gonna go make some final touches to your outfits for tonight. You all can come and join if you would like" I say.  All four boys follow me into the backstage courtyard. we would up sitting on the floor and tell funny stories. Before we knew it, it was one hour till the show. I rush the boys to their dressing rooms and one by one got them all ready. They all met in the hall.
"Kenna.... THESE ARE SO FUCKING AMAZING" jake says.
"Thanks Jakey. ITS YOUR TIME TO SHINE" I say herding  them to the stage. it was finally show time. I got to see my boys walk out in the blue pieces that fit them each so well. you could tell that josh was the star of the show in his white jumpsuit. the crowd was going wild. I take my position in the pit. And the show had finally began.