Lover, leaver

Twelve

"You were really good with that little girl today-" I say putting down the dish towel on the counter.
"eh- it was nothing." Sam says.
"Are you joking, I never noticed you were so good with kids." I say leaning on the counter. " I think it's sexy that you can make anyone feel special babe." I wink.
"Oh yeah." He leans in to kiss me.
"I'm excited to go to your moms for Christmas tomorrow." I say.
"oh, I totally forgot that this is the first Christmas you are spending with us since we were kids" he says excitedly.
"Yeah, it's gonna be exciting-" I say. "I'm ready for bed, you coming?" I ask.
"Yeah In a bit. I gotta work on a few things for the album first" Sam says walking into the living room.
"Fine, but don't stay up too late." I wink and walk to the bedroom.
*Christmas morning*
"Sammy-" I say.
"Hmm"
"Wake up- it's Christmas babe." I say.
"ten more minutes-" he says in a deep morning haze.
"Sam babe- your mom has called like seven times. You really need to get up or I'm gonna leave with out you" I exclaim.
"Fine-"  he says sitting up in the queen sized bed. "I'm up-"
"Good. Now get dressed- meet me out side in fifteen." I kiss his cheek and walk out of the door.
* twenty minutes later..*
"you ready?" I ask
"Yup, let's go to moms" Sam says putting the key into the ignition.
the car ride was full of laughter as usual. That made the ride a lot shorter.
We pull into the long driveway.
"Karen! We're here-" I say.
"KITCHEN -" she yells into the hall. Sam and I walked down the hall and I could already smell food cooking.
"It smells so good in here-" I say.
"Why thank you-" Jake says in his Oliver reed accent. I roll my eyes.
A few hours had past a dinner was almost over, we were cleaning up. I look over to Karen and aunt Lori. The both nod in response.
"Sam will you go out to the garage and get something for me" Karen asks.
"yes mama-" Sam turns to go out the door. We wait till the door clicks.
"Okay is everyone good with operation Christmas tree?" I say. I get nods all over the room.
"Okay- boys you know what to do." I say. They head to the garage to distract Sam.
"Alright- I'm gonna go get changed and get the box. You two plug in the lights" I smile.
While everyone was at their positions, Karen yells" time for presents"  I see josh, Jake and Sam run in the house like children. We pass out gifts, stacks spin stacks sitting in front of josh and Jake and Danny and Ronnie. but Sam only got one gift-
"Don't open yours Sam. Not yet." Karen says
"Why?" Sam asks.
"Because I said not to yet" she says I let out a giggle.
I see Karen start to lead him out into the back yard, snow was covering the ground and flakes peppered into my hair.
"Sammy-" I say.
"Kenna. What is this?" He asks
"open your gift now Sam." I tell him. I look up to see the twins and Karen and aunt Lori smile.
I see Sam open the box, he takes out one stick and then the other. He looks up at me as tears form in his eyes. on his knees now, he hugs me.
"Kenna.. I'm gonna be a dad." He says as he stands up.
" holy fuck- I'm gonna be a dad. I- I need a minute." He says running out into the woods leaving me in the snow covered field? My body fills with grief and I drop to the ground in the yellow dress that I was wearing on Sam and I's first date. tears falling one by one-
"Oh god, he is so upset" I wail.
"No no, honey. He is just in shock. He will come back just give him a moment to process it-" Karen says as she picks me up off the ground.
"What if Sam doesn't want this baby-" I start to ask.
"the real question is- do YOU want this baby?" Karen asks.
"Of course I do-" I answer.
"Than that's all that matters my dear, now let's get you inside." She says basically dragging me in the house.
*one hour later*
"It's been an hour, where is he?" I pace the floor.
"I'm not sure- I hope he is okay" Lori says.
"I think I know where he is- Jake come with me to get him. This is a big brother situation-" josh says putting on his coat.
"I agree josh. Let's go-" Jake follows him out the door.
"Please be okay."