Lover, leaver

Twenty two.

the next couple of weeks went by faster than I'd like to admit. the boys were done with the strange horizons tour. Meaning, Sam and uncle Danny could start putting the nursery together. but of course where you find half of Greta the rest of the band would follow.
"no, that's not." Jake says to Danny.
"But the instructions-" Danny blurts back.
"WHERE IS THE-" Sam yells. "Oh"
I put them on building furniture because I don't trust them with anything else and at least between the three of them, the crib will be safe.
while the three musketeers were building, josh and I, painted.
"I think that white will be okay for now and you can add blue accents to brighten the room, if you wanted" josh suggests.
"Actually, I like that. A lot." I pick up a paint roller dipping it into the paint.
"Hey josh!" I say.
"Wha-" he turns around and I put blue paint on his cheek. "What was that for?" He asks.
"Nothing. Just showing my appreciation for you Joshy poo" I laugh.
"Hey Kenna. What about a celebratory bonfire at moms tonight?" Jake asks standing up.
"Sure, when the nursery is done." I say painting around the door trim.
The room had gone silent due to the concentration. the boys had gotten the crib, the bookshelf and the chair built in three hours. josh and I were almost done with the paint. I start to hum a melody, leading to the lyrics.

"So bye-bye, Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
And them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
Singin' "This'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

I hear josh chime in, followed by Danny and Jake.

"But I knew I was out of luck
The day the music died
I started singin' bye-bye, Miss American Pie
Drove my Chevy to the levee, but the levee was dry
Them good old boys were drinkin' whiskey and rye
And singin' "This'll be the day that I die
This'll be the day that I die"

I see Sam get up to dance with me.

"Anddd... we are DONE!" I say.
"bonfire at moms?" Jake asks.
"Absolutely let's go" I say.
when we got to Karen's, we got the fire started and Danny, josh and Sam went for alcohol. Jake and I stayed behind to watch the fire.
"I know that you like her a lot Jake. but if you don't ask her soon she will move on from you" I spurt.

"i know that" Jake replies. " but does she like me like that?" he asks.
I roll my eyes.
"As if it weren't painfully obvious Jacob Thomas, she never shuts up about you" I say.
"really? I mean, cool." Jake says "oh yeah, Kenna. I want to play you something. Well not really you, but you know what I mean." He puts his hair in a half bun and grabs his acoustic guitar.
"go for it Jakey." I sit back in the lawn chair rubbing my stomach as he starts to play:
Bathing in the light around us
Praying for the night to comfort thee
Dancing on the coals below us
Praying for the flood to set us free
I close my eyes listening to every chord, every word- trying to figure out where I've heard it before.
* FLASHBACK *
"Jake, I think you should go up a chord" I say.
"But- wait a minute. You are right." Jake replies.
"what if we started it - "Bathing in the light around , us." I suggest.
"I like that. Let's tell Josh." Jake agrees.
*end fb *
That's right, me and Jake started writing this song. I forgot he could sing just like Josh for a moment.
I listen as he finishes the song:
Yeah
Who will bring the rain? Oh
Who will bring the rain? Hey
Who will bring the rain?
Oh, no, no
Who will bring the rain? Oh
Who will bring it?
Who will bring the rain?

" tears of rain. I forgot that we wrote it." I say.
"Yeah, first time we ever bonded and I wanted you guys to hear it" he says.
"I love it so much Jake and so does the baby. He is kicking everywhere. Wanna feel?" I ask extending my hand. I'm the red glow of the fire before us, Jake puts his hand on my stomach, feeling his nephew kick for the first time.
"Woah, he really is kicking everywhere. That's insane" Jake smiles.
I laugh- " yeah try sleeping with him and Sam."
"True, I'm sorry for that." He laughs.
"What are you two talking about?" Josh asks from behind me.
"Well ya know things and stuff" I say rolling my eyes.
"Fair enough. We got booze and we got you a smart water" he says handing it to me. All four boys, molly and I gathered around the fire, sitting , telling stories and laughing. Danny stands up in a drunken haze, raising his cup to toast.
"to Kenna, for agreeing to be our photographer and seamstress for the year."
"To Kenna-"
"To Kenna-"
"To new beginnings, in fifteen weeks there will be little feet running around our house and no more sleep. To Kenna. I love you baby." Sam says kissing me. I felt like a kid again, Just like old times before things fell apart. I wanted to stay here forever.