Lover, leaver

Fourteen

*7 weeks later*
the past weeks had gone by like a breeze. Sam and I were doing great. baby was okay. he hadn't missed anything. the appointments, the classes. He read every book he could. they were going on tour again soon and I was afraid of holding him back. The thought of the fans knowing about this baby, terrified me. I knew some wouldn't be happy. but I knew we would have a lot of support from the others. but it wasn't time yet.
the twins were already in uncle mode and Danny was mad at first because I didn't tell him but he has come around since then. I had a lot of spare time so I had been editing photos of the boys and sewing jumpsuits for the upcoming shows. Karen and I, well, we spent most of our time together. Her favorite thing to do was tell me that I was glowing and to give me pregnancy advice. I took all the help I could get.
I have a small bump. Not too noticeable yet- I was lying in bed with Sam, watching him sleep. he always looked so peaceful. I knew that would never change.
every day it's hard to remember that almost a year ago, I hated him. The peace was disturbed by my alarm.
"Mm-" I heard Sam groan beside me.
"Sorry sammy." I say.
" it's okay-" he rolls over hugging my waist. "Good morning baby" Sam says
"good morn- you weren't talking to me" I laugh.
"No I was talking to both of you kinda" he laughs.
"What are we doing today," I ask.
"What ever you wanna do babe-" sam replies. I roll my eyes. This man couldn't choose anything. What was gonna happen when we started picking names?
"well, I have an appointment at 11 today-" I start, Sam jumps out of bed,
"Of course I wanna go babe-" he says excitedly. "We are twelve weeks today." Sam smiles.
"We are- why do you know this?" I ask.
"Pregnancy tracker- duh" he laughs showing me his phone.
"Sammy. The fact that you have it and I don't -" I say.
"Listen I just wanna know- now get ready for your appointment. " Sam hurried me along.
"Sammy- I'm the one who should be overly excited" I spout.
"Sorry- it's just I can't wait for her- him. Them. To get here Kenna-" Sam glances with the puppy dog eyes at me.
"Come on, we are gonna be late." I say dragging him to the car.
We get to my appointment at the women's health facility. I always think that it's cold and scary but Sam loves it there.
"James, Kenna." The nurse calls. "Are you ready for your twelve week check up?!" She says in a peppy voice.
"absolutely. " I say  Sam follows with a smile
as we got into the room it only took a few minutes for the doctor to see me.  She does the standard echo ultrasound and I look over to see Sam studying her every movement.
"Well, Kenna. It looks like your baby is the size of -" the doctor starts.
"a lime" Sam finishes with a proud smile
"That's right, someone did their homework." The doctor smiles as she moves the wand around. the rest of the appointment goes by smoothly. the doctor hits a button and gives us a simple string of photos.
"Wow- Kenna. That's our baby-" Sam says in awe as we look at them in the car.
"Yep- what do you wanna do when we get home Sammy?" I ask.
"I don't know, take a nap." He laughs.
"that's valid-" I say.
as we arrived home, Sam and I didn't make it past the door without taking off shoes and coats, throwing them on the hardwood floor.
"I'm so tired." Sam says.
" me too, Sam. You know, I was so scared that you didn't want kids before I told you I was pregnant." I confess.
"I love you and I love kids Kenna- even if it were a false alarm, if there was anyone on the planet I want kids with, it's you." he says. "I love you Kenna jo-"
He has never said my middle name before-
"I love you too Sammy Francis-" I roll into his arms and drift to sleep.
*2 hours later*
I woke up to an empty bed. I roll over to see Sams empty Pepsi can sitting on the night stand. I smile to myself every time I see them. Sam loves a Pepsi after a good nap- he always has. I get up out of bed and stumble to the kitchen- it smells amazing. Cookies.
"Oh hey, did I wake you up?" Sam asks.
"No, but I know you had a good nap" I say.
"Oh, how so?" He turns around. I hold the Pepsi can up and shake it-
"Ah- never fails, you know me so well babe-" he kisses my cheek.
"I know it's my job." I smile. "Hey. I love you-"
"I love you too Kenna-" he hugs me from behind putting his hands on my stomach. Bending down, he says" I love you too baby Kiszka." And kisses my stomach gently. god. I loved him more than anything- I couldn't imagine what life was like with out Samuel Francis.