"okay ms.James. We are gonna get you to a room and your OBGYN will be here soon. I'm gonna monitor contractions and dilation. Is this dad?" The nurse asks pointing at Jake.
"Oh god no. He is on his way. This is uncle." I say.
"All is well. If you want to wait out in the hall that would be okay or if you want to stay, that's totally up to you." she looks at Jake.
"Jake, please stay till sam gets here. I'm scared." I say looking over to him grabbing his coat.
"of course." He turns holding my hand.
"Okay, it appears that you are only dilated to three and you have to be at a ten to push. so I'm the mean time try to relax and breathe through contractions and my name is Anna if you need anything-" the nurse says.
I slightly smiled.
"I did not think you were gonna have this baby today." Jake laughs.
"I might not have him today. it may be tomorrow" I joke.
"Sam better get here soon" Jake says.
Jake and I had sat in the same position for and hour waiting on Sam. Nurse Anna had come and gone , checking my vitals and asking the occasional 'do you need anything?' Question.
"I'm here, what happening?" Sam pops through the room. " thanks Jake for getting her here"
"of course man. we were both scared that you weren't gonna make it." Jake says.
"Don't kill him Kenna. I don't want to explain to mom why I'm the only son she has left after you kill Sam and josh." He laughs as he kisses me on the forehead and leaves the room to switch places with Danny.
"how are you doing Kenna bar?" Danny asks sitting down next to me.
"I hope I have this baby today" I say. "Thanks for showing up Danny-"
"Of course. Why wouldn't I not be?" He asks
"Good poi- AHHH" I scream.
"Oh god are you okay?" Sam worries.
"Yes honey. I'm fine- just another contraction." I breathe.
"That's my queue to go and update the boys-" Danny says.
"Dan- tell josh to come in." I say. He nods his head and leaves the room. Minutes later I'm greeted by josh.
"Hey mama..." he says learning his head in the door frame.
"Hey." I reply sitting and adjusting myself in the hospital bed.
"How are we doin?" he asks looking down.
"hangin in there- any word from mama k or aunt Lori ?" I ask.
"they can't make it until tomorrow but they told me to tell you to hang in there and that Ronnie and Mac will be by later tonight." he says. I nod. "Sam is low key freaking out. Jake is excited. I'm excited." he smiles.
"I'm freaking out and excited and scared." I say. " who is gonna be with me when I give birth to this kid? I mean I know that Sam will but I wanted two people and now I'm scared." I confess.
"well we are all gonna be outside waiting, pacing the floors and drinking stale ass coffee" Josh tries to reassure me. " you are gonna do great."
Before I could get a word out- nurse Anna came to visit.
"Oh-" she says surprised
"What- WHAT?!?" I say scared.
"you are currently at 8 centimeters dilated. Meaning you could be ready to have this sweet boy soon." she smiles. I sigh with relief.
"oh that's great. I'm kinda scared and the original three people that were gonna be in here when I deliver, well, two of them can't make it. is it possible for me to switch for just one more?" I ask in anticipation.
"Of course you can." Anna says with a smile. "You can decide now or when the time comes"
I nod. but who would I choose? I knew that I didn't want Danny in there because of obvious reasons but I couldn't choose between the twins. I knew that if I chose josh, Jake would feel left out but if I chose Jake- josh would also feel left out but, only one of them had been there for me since the start besides Sam.
dilated to nine centimeters now, the contractions were closer together.
"AHHHH- Sam just know that I HATE YOU." I scream.
"I-" Sams face drops "babe- why?"
"YOU DID THIS TO ME AND I HATE YOU FOR IT- I'm just kidding I love you." I say.
"well, it's time ms.James, it's time to have this baby." My doctor says walking into the room.
"WAIT- I want Jake." I say looking at Sammy.
"you want Jake in here with us?" Sam asks.
"Yes. he has been there for me since the beginning and you know it. Tell him to get in here and hold my damn hand-" I say.
With Sam behind me holding my left hand and Jake beside of me holding my right- the doctor instructed me to push. ( yellow - Coldplay)
Twenty minutes and nine total pushes, I heard our baby cry but importantly, for the second time in eight years- I seen Jacob Thomas Kiszka, cry. I let go from my death grip on his hand.
"Thank you. For everything Jakey. " I say.
"always. I'm gonna update the boys and give you and Sammy some space. You did good." He says taking off the scrub canvas they gave him. I smile as he leaves the room.
"Sammy." I say.
"Right here. Kenna. he is so beautiful." Sam says bringing him over to me.
I was right. My eyes, sammys nose. My beautiful boy. so soft and new. Our son.
About a rough hour later, we invited all of the boys back in.
"are you ready to meet your nephew?" I ask. "josh, you first."
His face lights up as I invite him to the bed.
"what's his name?" josh asks.
"Theo Thomas Michael kiszka." I say.
"our middle names" Jake smiles.
"I wanted him to be named after the two most loving, bravest men I know." I smile.
"welcome to the family young Theo. We are gonna have a lot of fun together little dude." Jake and josh say.
I realized then, that I had a family all along. I knew then that my son. My Theo, would experience be best life anyone could ask for.
my little family.
Just my Samuel Francis and my Theo Thomas together.
"Being a family means you are a part of something very wonderful. It means you will love and be loved for the rest of your life." - Lisa weed
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