Lover, leaver

Sixteen.

"these are so amazing" josh exclaims. I smile at him,
"As always, flawless" Danny turns around.
"I love this so much, mon Cheri." Sam says pulling my into a kiss. My stomach bumps into his making me lean in a little further. Every day my feet became less visible. the boys, mainly Jake and Danny, loved to tease me about it.
"FIVE  MINUTES TO SHOW" yelled  the stage directors.
"Hey, I think it's time." I say to sam as he gives me an awkward face.
"Kenna, what are you talking about." Sam asks.
"I think that it's time the fans knew about-" I say looking down to my rounded stomach.
"Oh, I have an idea. just stay back stage-" he says.
"Okay, I don't know what you have planned but it's gonna be great sammy." I say.
I decided to get ready. I put on the black dress with the orange flowers on it that Karen had bought for me. It was loos enough to cover my bump but not so loose that I couldn't hold it.
The boys had entered the stage and played a couple songs, right after age of man,
Josh says" Now before this next song, I'm gonna bring out my two favorite people"
I see Sam get up and come to the mic,
"Kenna-" he says extending his hand.
"Now I bet you are all confused. I know that we said two people, and that's exactly what we did." Sam says into the mic.
I turn to my side pressing down the dress showing the entire venue my growing baby bump.
"I guess you could call us: uncle van Fleet. Because Sam is gonna be a dad-" josh says as the crowd goes from silent to cheering loudly.
"this next song we play, was written about someone special. kenna. This is for you." Josh says pointing at me as I exit off stage.
The lights go down, and then back up again,
And josh starts to sing:
Can you light my love?
Flames glowing bright as the sun.
Deeper than oceans we run.
Watch as our world has begun.

For the first time in a long time, that some made me feel at home. the boys made me feel at home.
The boys were gonna be here in Texas for two weeks. maybe I could drive to see an old friend, bring Sam to meet her and her family.
"ahhuh, the fans love you so much." Sam says from behind me.
"I know. I've learned that being myself helps" I say.
"Did jita give you that- she has said that before" Jake laughs.
"She did actually," I say punching his arm and walk away. I had walked away from Jake approaching Sam on the couch. I run my fingers through his hair.
"Sammy, I want you to meet one of my childhood best friends tomorrow, so we are driving somewhere tomorrow. oh and tell your brothers to come too, we are riding horses." I wink.
"sure. Let's do it. I can't wait. But for right now, I'm ready for sleep." Sam yawns.
"I am also ready for bed, my back hurts really bad. but we hit a big milestone tomorrow. Thirteen weeks. that's -" I get cut off.
"the second trimester" Sam finishes.
"Yeah," I laugh."you never cease to amaze me Samuel Francis." I kiss the top of his head. We had headed back to the hotel, the sleeping arrangements were the sam as usual, me and Sam in one bed, Danny in the other. Then in the next room josh in one and Jake in the other. I let the darkness engulf me, drifting to sleep. I had turned away from Sam as I slept, on my side. I had woken up to the sound of Sams voice, but he wasn't talking to me. I felt his cold, lanky hand rubbing my stomach. He was talking to the baby. I hadn't opened my eyes, I just layer there and listened as Sam said,
"no matter what or who you are, I will always love you. Although, I really hope you are a boy. So you can dress like me and play bass like me. But even if you are a little girl, you can still dress and play bass like daddy. I will love you no matter what because that's what good dads do. Your momma and I, we are so ready for you to be here, we can't wait to love you and teach you stuff. But, your uncles are super excited to see you. they already love you so much- but not as much as I do."
I shift to let him know I was awake, opening my eyes.
"Good morning Sammy." I say.
"Good morning baby." He replies. "Ready to go see your friend? All of the guys are awake now."
"Yes, I can't wait to see molly. It has truly been years. You are going to love her" I say.
"I will love her because you love her honey." Sam smiles.