Paradise Lost [Tokyo Revengers]

Chapter 105

Chapter 105:

Oddly Mikey wasn't mad even though it was 2 AM and he had to go look for me. I thought he would beat the shit out of me and thought I bailed on him, but he actually just said 'Let's go home'

We were heading back to Kanto Manji Gang's headquarters, this was the first time in years I rode on his babu, my god, did it bring back so many memories.

Memories that, don't seem to matter anymore.

I hugged Mikey tight for two reasons, so I wouldn't fall off his bike, and to see if I'd feel something, but I felt nothing but sadness.

What's sad the most is, Mikey is literally the only person I had left, but he's not the person I want to be with anymore.

Mikey, who was my whole world, is now a stranger to me. 

The old Mikey, the Mikey I fell deeply in love with, Mikey who used to be my everything is now just a faint memory to me. I barely even remember him anymore.

"We're here," Mikey said as he mounted his babu, I snapped out of my daze and hopped off his bike,

"I'm sorry for causing you trouble," I said monotonously and bowed to Mikey, I didn't even bother to look at him, I just bowed my head and headed to my room afterward.

...

I don't know what has gotten into me, I told Hanma and Taiju that I'd keep my eye on Mikey but I've been cooped up in my room since I got back from that night.

Koko would bring me food and ask me what I needed but I would just shake my head and hide under the covers, not wanting to associate myself with them.

Mikey even personally dropped by once to check up on me, and I ignored him too, but he did say something unexpected to me.

'If you don't want to be here, you can leave, but if I ever find you doing something suspicious, I'll kill you'

I can leave? Is this some sort of test? I told him I won't leave him so why is he saying I can leave? I don't really understand what he means by it.

I never really put much thought into what he said though, I was still preoccupied with my dark thoughts, maybe it's because Chifiuyu's words kept repeating in my head. I know it wasn't directed to me, but if he knew the real story, if he knew I played a huge part in Draken's death, then he'd blame me, not Takemichi.

"Oi," I heard that psychopath come in my room,

"Leave me alone, Sanzu," I said, not bothering to face him, I still hid under the covers and sulked.

I heard him click his tongue and approach the bed, he pulled off the covers from me, exposing me to the cold air.

"Fuck you," I cursed at Sanzu, obviously not in the mood for his bullshittery.

"I don't know what is it your planning, but you're obviously plotting something against Kanto Manji Gang," Sanzu said as he sat on the chair at the farthest corner of the room. I raised my eyebrow at him in confusion.

"What are you talking about? I told Mikey I wouldn't leave him, didn't I?" I told him, "Your accusation doesn't make sense!"

"Did you really?" He asked, "All you've been doing is hiding in this bedroom, avoiding everyone, especially Mikey,"

"What do you want me to do?" I rebutted, "I'm here against my will, do you want me to feel at home?"

"You are not a guest, you're not a hostage, Mikey said you could leave, you are not here against your will."

He had a point, Mikey told me I could leave but I'm still here.

I told myself I'll stop Kanto Manji Gang from the inside, but what the hell was I doing all this time? Why the hell am I sulking for? What will that accomplish? I had a goal, right?

"I don't know what are your intentions for staying here, and frankly I don't give a shit, I don't trust you, not even a little bit," He started off, "But whatever it is your planning, whether it is to serve Mikey or to destroy us, you're doing a terrible job,"

"I want to serve Mikey," I told him,

"Then you better start pulling your weight around here, you're part of Kanto Manji Gang aren't you?" Sanzu told me, "You are his partner, his lover, act like it," 

I hate to admit it, I really hate to admit it, but Sanzu Haruchiyo was right. I have to act now, I can't just lock myself in this room and let the darkness consume me. I lost too much to give up now. 

I'll destroy Kanto Manji Gang from the inside. I'll work for them, and once I gained their trust, that's when I'll make my move.

"Let's me make one thing clear, Mikey might be quite fond of you, but I won't hesitate to slice you open and feed your insides to strays if I ever caught you betraying the boss," Sanzu threatened me before he left the bedroom.

"What did he want from you?" Kokonoi asked as he entered my room as soon as Sanzu left. "It's odd to see you two associating with each other,"

"Koko-kun, where's Mikey?" I asked Kokonoi who was surprised by my question,

"He's in his room, he said he doesn't want to be disturbed," Koko added, I smiled and quickly headed out the bedroom, ignoring his last statement.

...

I headed to Mikey's room and surprisingly, it wasn't locked. For someone who doesn't like to be disturbed, you think he'd lock his room.

"Hey, Mikey!" I entered his room enthusiastically, "You want a blowjob?"

"What the fuck are you talking about?" Mikey asked, he was sitting on his couch staring at the window before I came into his room.

I entered his room and closed the door behind me, making sure I locked it. I headed towards Mikey and gave him a sincere smile before speaking to him.

"I had a talk with Sanzu," I started off, 

"That's new," He muttered, even he thought it was I was talking to that crazy weirdo, he always knew I disliked him even when we were still in Toman, 

"He made me realize a lot of things, and one of them was you,"  I told him shyly,

Mikey just stared at me, listening to what I had to say.

"I am your partner, I'm here to serve you," I told him, I swore my loyalty to Sano Manjiro and Kanto Manji Gang "I'm here because I want to be here, because I want to be with you, you're the only one I have left and frankly that's all that matters because you're the only person I'll ever need,"

I said as I gave him a full 90 degrees bow.

"Use me however you wish, I'm yours," I told him as I flashed him the most sincere smile I could give him, he did not say anything, he just grabbed my arm and pulled me towards him on the couch, so I was now straddling on top of him.

"Promise me, you will never leave my side again," Mikey said, still emotionless, but you could tell he meant it.

"I promise," I replied as I closed the gap between the two of us, he wrapped his arms around my waist pulling me closer towards him, deepening the kiss.

I pulled away slightly to catch my breath and smiled at him, "so how about that blowjob?" I teased, chuckling.

What's supposed to be just giving him head ended up with us having intercourse all evening.

The sex wasn't even that bad, this isn't even against my will, in fact, I'm quite enjoying myself. Not because I love Mikey or anything, those feelings were buried deep down and I don't plan to dig them back up. But the thrill, the fact that Mikey was dangerous, the fact that Mikey could kill me anytime they find out I'm plotting to destroy them, it excites me. The intensity, the rivalry between me and Mikey was alluring, it turns me on. I just couldn't get enough of him.

If in Dollars I was out of control, I was way worse in Kanto Manji Gang.