Dancing in the Rain (Fourtris AU)

Chapter 9

Tris

I've been avoiding Tobias.

It's a terrible thing, I know. I just feel like we are moving to quickly. Way to quickly.

And I'm scared.

I'm not scared of our relationship. I'm scared of losing him.

I lost my dad, then my mom, and I almost lost Christina.

It seems as though I have bad luck with all of my good luck. Does that make sense? Every time something good happens, the good seems to fail, and the bad brightens.

Something as magnificent as Tobias, I couldn't ever imagine losing.

He bought me a house, and comforted me in my time of need.

But that's another thing.

I feel like I haven't had time to mourn over my mom. One minute I'm at her funeral and the next, I'm in Portland, away from her.

I fall back onto my bed.

"Tris? You're going to want to see this." Christina says.

I run after her as fast as possible, just in time to her the news lady.

"It seems as though all of the missing soldiers serving in Iraq from 2009 have been found. One of the soldiers managed to find his way back with many injuries, and the first thing he did was tell where the others were. Soon, the U.S. rescued them and all of them managed to be alive except one, Andrew Prior. He managed to guard the other soldiers with his life. For which, the others will be eternally grateful."

I broke down.

See? Bad luck. He's been alive.

My lasts words to him were, Promise me you will come home, and he promised.

He broke his promise. I never got to say goodbye.

I mean I did, but I meant it as a see you later.

There is no see you later.

I wish there were visting hours in heaven. It makes me feel incomplete, because both of my parents left without a goodbye.

The last words to my mom was right before my graduation; See you soon, love you.

I never got to see her.

Every single second I spent with them, I wasted an opportunity to say I love you.

"Said goodbye, turned around and you were gone gone gone
Faded into the setting sun..."

Christina's phone rang.

"Is this some kind of sick joke to you?" I screamed. The lyrics hurt.

I stormed to my bedroom, and sank to my knees.

Gone.

"Tris, he sent this, you know before he.. It arrived today. He must have sent it months ago."

She handed me the letter, and kissed my head.

My Dearest Bumblebee,

There has not been a day where I have not thought about you and your mother. It's been crazy, and I have tried to send so many letters. I know I promised to see you again, and I will. I love you.

But I know I am not going to make it. Everyday, someone here loses a live, but I will never stop fighting, for you.

I promise to be at your wedding. I promise to be there with you, at all times.

I keep a picture of all of us and it gives me hope.

It's hope that you will treasure all of our memories. Don't dwell on the time I was gone, dwell on the time I spent with you.

I just want you to know, I am with you. Always. I love you so much and I wish I could watch you grow up in person.

My dad gave me this charm of a cross. I always wore it on my wrist, but I'm giving it to you. Something of mine for you to have.

I love you.

Dad

I cry.

I take the cross and put it on my locket. The locket has a picture of the three of us.

On one side of the locket, there is my mom's wedding ring. Now, there is my dad's cross on the other side.

Something from each of them.

I cry until my tears run dry and my throat screams with pain from all of my sobbing.

I am officially the only Prior left.