Patience is a Virtue(Under MAJOR editing)

chapter 24

I walk over the silent land and over some hills and end up at my parent’s graveyard. I look around to see the sun still peaking over me and whatnot.

Its Christmas morning and I am sitting at my parent’s graveyard. “Mom and dad. I miss you. So instead of visiting family in a warm house I am visiting you here. I miss you so much that I don’t even care. Look I even got you something!” I take out some roses and a wreath and lay them down on the graves.

I smile to myself and stand in front of them. “I wish you were still here with me. I am having a really hard time at the moment and I don’t know what to do. I am being selfish with both boys. I don’t know what to do.” I crack and lean down and just sit in the snow not caring.

The cold isn’t to any comparison to how I am now. “I need your help mom.” I burst into tears and just sit there quietly sobbing to myself.

“Help me.” I whisper and take one final breath. It starts to snow big heavy flakes and I start to get covered in it. But I don’t honestly care enough to move. So I sit there in my own thoughts.

“Crystal?” a voice comes out and I feel a familiar hand on my shoulder. It melded into me perfectly, like it was made for me.

I turn around and Josh is standing there with flowers. “What are you doing here?” I ask and he holds a hand out and helps me up from the ground.

“Opps careful. Well I came here to give these to your parents.”

“Why?” I ask confused.

“I missed them and I loved them like they were my other parents.”

“Oh.” He looks at the grave in silence and starts talking so low and quiet that I couldn’t even hear.

“What are you saying?” I ask over the wind now blowing with the snow. He stops talking and looks at me.

“Nothing. Just saying a few words.”

“Can I join?” I look up to him and he has snowflakes all over his hair which makes him irresistible and all over his coat. He looks at me with his chocolate eyes.

I can’t get enough of them. I drink them up and never stop until he blinks. He comes closer and closer slowly until we are inches apart. Snowflakes could melt between us with all the heat we are giving off.

My heart rate picks up and beats in my rib cage. When his lips are inches, so close, I turn my head and bring it to look at the snowy ground. “Just one kiss?” he pleads softly and a soft breath of air floats off into the sky.

I take a deep breath mentally. I look up and meet his soft pleading eyes. My eyes tell him yes and he doesn’t hesitate to let me change my mind.

He cups my cold red cheek and kisses me. My heart rate starts beating even faster at his kiss. My eyes flutter shut to his touch and they have no need to be open anymore. We kiss blissfully and I wrap my arms around his neck and he deepens the kiss till we are out of breath.

The thing was…

I didn’t care.

He pulls away and I flutter my eyes open and look up to him to see some tears in the corner of his eyes. I take my mitten and wipe them away.

“Don’t cry.” I whisper softly.

“I can’t help it. I missed you.”

“Me too.” I say softly and completely truthful at this moment. He makes me feel like I am at home and at total comfort. Like he would never disappoint or leave. I am at true comfort.