This is why I Fell for you

Chapater 14

Getting home was probably the best part of the day. "Tell me what I need to do". Those words rang in my ears. He wanted another chance and I wanted so desperately to give him one. But I had to let him go. Like I said in class, it's just how it has to be. After figuring out that it was best to keep him free, I played Every Rose has its Thorn nine billion times. I had my head phones in while lying on my bed when I heard knocking on my door. I looked to see if my mom was going to open the door but she didn't. I took out my head phones and leaned over to see if she was even there. I heard the knocking again and looked to my French doors. Weird enough it was Jack. I got up and let him in.

"Savannah. I need to know. I need to know what I can do for you. I can tell you need me just as much as I need you." He said. I stayed silent. I didn't know what t tell him. "Please." He said.

"I don't know what to say to you. I'm going to hurt you. I'm not a good kid." I said.

"You're an amazing person Savannah. Just let me at least know if I have to move on. I will because I can't wait around for you forever. I have to get on with my life." He said to me. I wrapped my arms around him and put my head on his chest. He wrapped his arms around me to. He kissed me.

"I love you so much Jack. I'm scared." I admitted.

"Me to. I don't know what to do." He smiled at me. We laughed a little.

"I'm scared if I keep you, I'll hurt you weather it be problems with us, Joey or anything else."

"Joey isn't here is he? And Savannah we can work through issues like these. I would do anything for you."

"I know you would." He grabbed my hands and was about to say something.

"SAVANNAH!?" My mom called.

"Yeah?" I called back.

"Come here please."

"One second." Jack started walking away.

"Wait!" I called after him.

"What?" I walked over to him and kissed him.

"Can we talk later?" I asked. He hesitated before answering.

"No. I need to know Sav." I opened my mouth, nothing came out. "That answers that. Goodbye." He was gone. Just like that. Losing him was the hardest thing I ever had to do. He was my boyfriend, my best friend and if he asked me to, I'd marry him. But he left, and I let him. I didn't have a choice. I had to let him. Didn't I? No, I know I did. It wasn't a question. It was a straight up fact. Staying with him would hurt him.

I went down stairs to see what my mom wanted.

"What do you want for dinner?" My mom asked looking into her cookbook. She was a shitty cook.

"I want to move back to Oregon." I said.

"What?" She asked. She looked stunned that I'd even bring up the topic.

"Mom, I don't want to stay here anymore. I hate it."

"I thought you liked it. You have friends, your boyfr..." I cut her off before she could ever finish her though of Jack making me happy here.

"I don't mom. I have that all back home. I can't even consider New York home."

"Savannah, I can understand completely your reasoning for wanting to go back but I can't just send you back." She said.

"Why not?! I can ask one of my friends if I can stay with them. Mom please. If I stay here I will be depressed. I am already. I just can't do this anymore. I'm begging you. Please." I begged. My mom took a loud breath.