This is why I Fell for you

Chapter 7

I called Joey when I got home. I needed to tell him that he really needed to leave me alone. It rang twice then he answered.

"Hello?" He said.

"Hi." I replied.

"So your boyfriend." He started.

"I told you about him." I said.

"Yeah but I didn't think you were being truthful! Savannah, I love you and need you back." He said sounding like he actually meant it. I knew he didn't. He couldn't...could he? It didn't matter anyway.

"Save it. Joey, I just need you to not call me anymore. Like texts every once in a while are okay but we broke up and you dumped me. You have to just leave me alone and drop this." I said trying to be as nice as possible.

"Savannah this isn't a game. I love you. Give me a chance. One more." He said. He was really starting to convince me. This wasn't a good sign.

"Joe. I am begging you from the bottom of my soul. Please, just leave me alone." I was being sincere with him because he was with me.

"I can't." He was being real. I could tell. I wanted to just die. I was standing in my room just wishing a meteor would come from space and kill me. It would make my life so much easier.

"Joey I have to go." I said monotone.

"Bye Sav baby." He called me that when we were dating.

"Please don't call me that. Bye." I hung up. I walked over to my French doors that led over to my balcony and opened them. I then laid on my bed. I put Cody Simpson on and put my iPhone back on my night stand. I cried my heart out. I was conflicted between a guy who I loved more than anything and Joey. Joey being a guy who hurt me more times than I can count but still loved. How is that even possible? I closed my eyes in disbelief. I suddenly felt the best feelings in the world. The butterflies in my stomach and soft lips crashing onto mine. With my eyes still closed and tears still streaming down my cheek I smile.

"This was probably the best part of my day." I opened to see Jack on top of me. He snuck in threw the French doors. I guess I didn't hear him.

"What's the matter babe?" He asked. We shuffled positions so that he was under me and I could lay my head on his chest. We did that a lot. Most every time he was in my room and we would talk.

"Nothing." I said.

"Well no one cries for no reason! Tell me." Oh God I wanted to tell him so badly. But how do you tell your boyfriend, the boy your insanely in love with that your conflicted with a guy that dumped you and treated you like shit for months on end.

"Sad movie." Yeah the sad movie of my life!

"Babe." He laughed. He wrapped his arms around me and kissed the top of my head. I let out a little laugh that was completely fake.

***

I made popcorn and we watched Titanic. It's my favorite. He held me in his arms as we watched. I feel like Titanic was alway there for me to help me with my problems. I was always Rose, Jack was ironically Jack and Joey was Cal. It was unbelievable how much this connected to my life right now as it did before when I had the issue with Ava, Kyle and Jack. I don't know how James Cameron did it but he could make a damn good movie. One I could watch over and over and still not be tired of. Jack watched it only because I made him. I think it grew on him even though he'd ask me questions like "Why would she want basically a stranger to draw her naked?" or "Why is she getting married to man who is clearly ten thousand years older than her?" Questions I didn't have the answers to but made up answers.

When the movie was over, he left. I went down stairs to talk to my mom.

"Hi." I said.

"Well hello to you too Savannah Ann." She said more focused on what she was doing.

"Mom, I want to go back to Oregon." I said. She turned back to me looking upset.

"I thought you liked it here. You have friends and I thought you even had a boyfriend! Your school seems amazing."

"And that's all true but this isn't home." I said.

"Savannah I can't leave. I have to stay for work. There is nothing I can do. I'm sorry but that's the way it is." I walked back to my room in frustration. I texted my friend Gabriel to get online. He was on in a matter of minutes. We video chatted and it felt really good when I saw his face pop up on my screen. He was one of my really good friends back home.

"Hi!" He said.

"Gabriel!" I said cheerfully.

"What's going on? You need to come back home!" He said.

"I was just trying to talk to my mom about it...she won't budge."

"Do you not like your new school or something?" He asked sounding almost sad with the tone of his voice.

"No I like it and I have friends and even the best boyfriend anyone could ask for I just feel like I can't call this place home." I said.

"Sav, it's January. You are still adjusting!" He said.

"Yeah but it's no Portland." I laughed.

"Certainly not!" He laughed back.

"Speaking of Portland how's Joey?"

"Joe? Why do you want to know about him?" He asked in disgust.

"You know, just a check up." I lied.

"I know you're lying but I don't want to get into it. He's okay he hasn't been his asshole self lately. You wouldn't have anything to do with that...right?" He asked suspiciously.

"No. Well not intentionally." I said.

"Savannah. What the fuck. Dish it all."

"I'm getting nervous because like I said before I couldn't ever ever ever ask for a more perfect boyfriend! He's smart, hot, a good kisser, nice everything that a guy needs to be right and sometimes I feel like I am still in love with Joey even though he hurt me for all those months ad I just can't deal and..." After my fast, continuous, crazy novel I told him he stopped me.

"Calm down! He is across the country." He assured me.

"I know that but that won't stop him. I'm pretty sure he is flying into New York tomorrow!" I knew that because text texted me every hour on the hour telling me!

"You'll figure it out babe. You're a smart kid." I smiled.

"Thank you." I said.

"I have to go but I'll text you tomorrow alright?"

"That's too long." I said with sorrow stuck inside me.

"I promise it will go by fast!" He said. I hesitated but finally answered.

"Okay. Love ya and miss ya. Tell everyone I said hi I miss them and I love them!" I said.

"Will do Sav bye." We hung up. That night the only thing I could do was cry myself to sleep. To the thought if not seeing my Oregon friends, to the thought of Joey coming to New York, to the thought of Jack finding out that maybe Joey still has a place in my heart and the thought that I might lose Jack over the place in my heart for Joey. All this would only lead me to one place...hell! Something had to be done and quick or else something really really bad could be the outcome.