Meghan's POV
a week has past and the boys are leaving tommorow for tour,
i have been ignoring johnson all week, and he's been ignoring me, i do miss talking to him, so much.
he's leaving for three month and were not on good terms, i don't want him leaving with us on bad terms.
it's just me and him home, gilinsky left to see his girl, they still haven't made it official yet, i don't know why.
i lightly knocked on Johnson's door to his room, "yeah," he said.
i walked in to see him laying on his bed, his phone was in his hands.
"can we talk?" i asked sitting on the edge of the bed, he nodded sitting up.
"I'm sorry for going through your phone, it was so wrong of me." i said
he shook his head, his eyes were shut and he was looking down, he looked up into my eyes,
"i tried to get over you," he paused, "I don't think i can."
my heart was racing, why does he have to do this now? when he's about to leave, when i am done with dating right now,
i stayed silent waiting for him to say more and physically break me.
"i didn't mean to hurt you, mallory was the only girl that was there and i just wanted to get over you, because i can never compete with sammy, i know you still love him, and never will stop." he said looking into my eyes.
"johnson-i," i tried to get words out,
"shh, don't say anything.. please." he said, slightly confusing me.
i nodded wanting to wrap my arms around him and tell him that I'm sorry.
"i went to Omaha, i broke it off with her, and i know you don't want me. it's okay, i just hate you being mad at me." he explained. i nodded again, not saying anything.
"okay," i said,
...
"why can't you just come? you know i want you here," johnson said, we were at the airport.
"it's okay, I'll be alright." i smiled assuring him,
i hugged him really tight and let go, i then hugged gilinsky, "love you both," i said
"love you megs, don't burn the house down," gilinsky said, i rolled my eyes and slightly hit him the arm.
i hugged them both one last time and went outside to wait for sammy to drive me back home, i really wanted someone else to drive me home but everyone was busy.
"thanks for comming here to pick me up," i said getting into the car.
"it's no problem" he said, his eyes focused on the road.
i couldn't help but stare at his perfect face, i miss having him all to myself. he's so perfect, well not his personality.
"stop staring,"he said and he laughed. his dimples showing.
"im not," i said looking away.
"let's just go back to the house," he said biting his lip. i shook my head, i am not giving in this time.
"no i wanna go home" i said
"exactly, let's go home." he said, i stayed silent knowing he's not gonna give up, i slightly nodded, his smile was big.
"you can change into my clothes if your un comfortable right now." he offered.
"it's okay" i said
the rest of the car ride we fought over me wearing his clothes, he kept saying that it would sexy as hell but i don't want too because then he would think we can get back together.
we got to the apartment and i instantly sat on the couch, he rolled his eyes and put his keys down.
"why are you sitting on the couch?" he asked, i shrugged my shoulders and he frowned.
"let's go to our room," he said
i slightly laughed, "your room?" i asked and he shook his head.
i shook my head and he quickly sat down next too me and put his hand
on my thigh, sending tingles down my spine.
"sammy," i whispered removing his hand, not wanting to go any further.
"we both want each other, why can't we be together?" he asked.
"because i don't have any fight left in me, i cant deal with a relationship right now. and the things you say to me are really hurtful," i said
"but I've been nothing but nice to you lately," he said standing up.
"doesn't matter sammy, the things you said to me in the past were hurtful and i deffintly didn't forget about them."
this conversation is deffintly not going anywhere good, i don't have the energy to fight with him.
"fuck" he mumbled putting his hands through his hair, he walked near door and sat down on a chair.
"our relationship is toxic" i said, meaning it.
"no it's not." he said, his eyes looking into mine.
i stayed silent, he walked back over to me and sat down next too me once again.
"please," he whispered putting his hand on my thigh again, sending tingles through my whole body.
i couldn't control myself anymore, he's so fucking attractive and even though he's such a dick, but i love him, so so much.
i pressed my lips against his, shifting closer to him. he kissed me back, his lips were soft and i can't even explain how much ive craved his lips since the last time we kissed. i can't even explain how much i need him, all of him.
i straddled him, making our bodies closer, not leaving my lips off of his.
he grabbed my butt and carried me to his bedroom.
"im sorry," he mumbled kissing my neck. he kept telling me he was sorry for being a dick to me,
"I've wanted to do this since the first day i saw you," he whispered, his hand trailing over my thigh, i flinched and he slightly chuckled.
"let me take these off," he said taking my shorts off, leaving me in my underwear.
"i so need you right now baby," sammy said kissing the inner part of my thighs.
