{ this is gonna be a longer chapter, hope that's okay ;) }
Meghan's POV
i woke up on the couch, i fell asleep last night during the movie. so did johnson.
he was next too me sleeping. he looked really cute, his blonde hair was sticking in all different directions.
I can't get that kiss out of my head, i feel like it was a mistake. I shouldn't have done that, i kissed him to get sammy out of my head.
this is all too complicated, i can't believe i am living with johnson and gilinsky in LA when i was just living with sammy. All I want to know is why he had sex with her. I don't want an excuse i just want to know why
"morning sunshine" gilinsky came out and i smiled.
i feel like shit, all i want to do is lay in my bed all day, it's weird how yesterday i was all fine but for some reason now i feel depressed. i keep having dreams about me and sammy, and it's driving me insane.
i got off the couch and quickly went into my room and under my covers.
i let a few tears out, i probably wouldn't be like this if i didn't see sammy the other day. of coruse the time i am there he has to be there. and then i kissed johnson, I don't want him too get the wrong idea. I don't know how i feel about any of this.
there was a gentle knock on the door and johnson peaked his head in.
"hey, i just want to be alone right now... im sorry," i said and thankfully he nodded and left.
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it was already Friday night. Wednesday and Thursday all i did was mope around and watch netflix. Usually I hear girls are eating ice cream and pigging out when they have break ups... but mine is the complete opposite.
I haven't ate a real meal since.. I don't even know. Gladly johnson didn't say anything about the kiss.. i am relieved.
"please please please please," johnson came into my room jumping on me.
he wants me too go to the famous o2l party, that's all they do.. is go to those damn party's.
"okay" i said regretting it. i have been moping around and i need to stop.
he left the room and i looked in the tall mirror in my room. i have dark circles under my eyes and i look like shit.
wonder if sammy is going to be there? probably not because him and kian apparently aren't on good terms.
i want too look hot tonight, if that's even possible with these dark circles and my pale completion.
after like an hour of trying to find an outfit i finally found a cute ass outfit.
i am wearing tight black high waisted shorts with a white crop top. i topped it with a gold chain necklace and black high heels. i put on more makeup then i usually do but it doesn't look like caked on, it looks good. I think.
I curled my hair and quickly grabbed my black purse and my phone meeting the boys in the living room.
as soon as i got in the living room I saw their eyes on me, they both looked really good. they both were wearing button ups.
"wow, you look.." he paused "great" johnson said and I smiled and thanked him.
when we got too the house i already regret.
i said hi to everyone and stood near johnson and gilinsky. Noelle might be here with aaron but i haven't seen them yet.
"why does everyone think these parties are so fun?" i asked johnson and he laughed and shrugged his shoulders.
