Life SUCKS.

I WON'T GIVE UP AND I WON'T GIVE IN

      "Joseph please cut it off. What's all this really about?"
   "I'm serious Tress baby I only want to be your friend. It's totally fine if you don't want to be mine. It's just that I will really feel you have forgiven me if you do accept".

    "I see, do you know you have taken alot from my reading schedule. And have totally messed up my timetable".
   He smiled at me. I was expecting him to get angry like he always did. Call me names and then walk away. But he stood there smiling. What happened to the old Joseph? Is he really trying to mend his ways?

  "Why are you smiling so much"
  "Because I'm talking to the most beautiful lady right now!"he smiled wider.
    "Joseph please stop it. What's with the flattering and the lies? Just stop it okay. Don't even try to make me feel good about myself even just a little bit!" I said loosing my temper.
     

     "Treasure I'm very serious. And trust me you are very beautiful. If not I won't be here at all! I really like you a lot. I'm not saying you should leave your boyfriend. But I just want to be here for you as a friend". He said, bumping shoulders with me.
     "Hmmm,okay okay,let's just see how it goes. So what subject do you want to start with".
     "Literature please. I want to start with something I can beat you at".

     I smiled for the first time since we started talking. "You know I'm not that bad. I still manage to come first every session".
   "You come first overall not first in literature. There is a difference. In literature it's either you're fourth or you manage to be third. It's more like a competition between Amaka and you". He said shuddering.

    "You know what, let's start reading already. I'm not letting you paint me stupid anymore".
   "You are not stupid".
  "I know so let's read".
   "Literature it is". We both chorused and laughed.
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    *Dear diary*
 
I am friends with Joseph. I'm beyond happy. He gave me a chance to know him. And in these past two months he has been the same. He gives me more time than Samuel himself. We have been reading buddies and he helped me alot with literature. Honestly, looking back, I'm happy he spoilt my chances of winning. I'm indeed grateful for all that happened. What if during that competition everything went well? Then,I won't have seen and known this side of Joseph.

     I made some friends in class and the gossiping reduced alot. Joseph also helped my mum financially. He spoke to his father and currently my mum is running one of his restaurants for him. She earns atleast N60,000 a month. An amount that takes us the combination of our individual salaries for two months to earn. In a way I feel like I owe him big time.

    But anytime I try to ask him why he is doing all this. He always claims "I'm his really good, close and best friend". I'm really honoured to have two amazing best friends! Sometimes it makes me want to brag. It seems my lucky charm is beginning to work. Oops,I don't even have a lucky charm. It's purely mere luck. And I don't wish to run out of it anytime soon.

    My mum has started saving to rent a new apartment. I'm beyond happy. I feel this is the life I have always wanted. And everyday I look forward to seeing my friends. It feels good when the bullying and discrimination is over. I don't know if it's over for sure, but I never want to experience all that again.

    I collected my results last month and for the first time ever I took second in literature. Obviously, Joseph took first. As they say it's even harder to beat your teacher. Samuel had taken me out and spent alot on me. Joseph and Samuel had to put their differences aside because of me. And I'm glad they did, because their friendship is going really well.

      This is the last term of this session and I will be moving to my final class in secondary school. I honestly can't wait. I love school so much,but I'm human I get tired sometimes. I just can't wait for all this 'burning the midnight candle to stop'. I do enjoy it,but I can't wait for that day when I can finally close all textbooks and smile because I'm now a successful graduate.

       It seems good news is all I hear these days. John finally proposed and Ella said yes. She has been beaming since then. She just can't wait to be wedded. I also want to have that amazing feeling one day but ofcourse my studies should be my priority. And I intend to study harder to get there, because I know for sure my future will be bright and I refuse to dim that light. I won't give up and I won't give in! Success is all mine.