Life SUCKS.

I only want my mum right now.

   It has been a week. I, Sofia, Joseph and my ex were suspended for fighting. Yes my ex, his name doesn't ring a bell anymore. I didn't want my mum to know I was suspended or she would have found out about how I was used. The only family member that knows everything is Ella. I told her,to divert her mind from what's happening in her home. Since my mum is always home in the morning. I normally dress for school and head to Joseph's house where I would stay till I felt school should be over.

      Joseph and Sofia have been all supportive,Ella too. Sofia kept on apologizing, saying it was all her fault. But it wasn't. No one saw this coming. That day after Samuel's confession I ran to the library until the principal sent for me. I haven't cried. I didn't cry. I refused to cry for a boy. I refused to be weak. That doesn't mean I wasn't affected. I was,that incident took away my smile. I was depressed because I felt I wasn't enough. I felt disgusted with myself. What have I done to anyone to be their target everytime?
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   One week went back more quickly than I thought. I'm back in school. Everyone kept starring at me. Even the teachers were looking at me. Ofcourse it will spread round the entire school. I'm not surprised. The gossiping started again but no one dared to confront me. They left me alone and I was glad. Samuel has a new girlfriend now. He is dating a new girl in Ss2. I hope he doesn't use her like he did to me. Joseph and Sofia were always by my side. If I was at the library,they were too. Anywhere I was,there were right beside me. Trying to initiate small conversations.

      I stood up about to go to the restroom. "Where are you going Tress? I will come with".
       "It was just a silly breakup. I'm not dying anytime soon. Stop following me everywhere. You're not my shadow. I really appreciate you're looking out for me. But I don't want your reasons to be because of a boy. I'm going to the restroom. I atleast deserve privacy", I replied.

     "It's been so long. You said something that long. Thank God you're coming back. I miss the Treasure I know. I hate the new you. Samuel is busy enjoying his life. You should too. Don't let him tie you down like that. You haven't even smiled just once since then". Joseph said. It was obvious he was worried and trying to look out for me.

       "Jeez it's okay. I just need more time. I'm okay trust me. I just need more time to sort myself out. You should understand". I replied and started to leave to go to the restroom. But has usual, someone had to follow me. Sofia followed me all the way to the toilet. Claiming she also had a bladder. But I wasn't in the mood to argue with anyone.  I'm hardly in those moods anymore.
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      We were done with all our exams, both internal and external. I can't wait to leave that hell of a school. We collected our results today. Our graduation is next week Monday.

    I'm currently in Sofia's house. Johnson is here to. And we're all with our envelope. The envelope which has both our waec and neco result in it.
     "Treasure you go last. First it's me,then Joseph. You save the best for the last".
    "I won't argue", I said and bumped fists with Joseph. Sofia gave us the dead glare. "Open something or do you need help?" Joseph asked teasingly but Sofia ignored him. She finally opened it after taking some deep breaths. The moment we saw her smile we knew she did well. She passed.

     "Show me", I said and snatched it away from her. "Sofia I'm impressed really. This is a really good result. Only one credit. Someone is becoming smarter", I said praising her. And giving Johnson her result.
      "Oh wow blow my mind. Your neco is good but your waec is even better no single c. Are you sure this is your result?" He said reading the name boldly written there so loudly. "Naa,this isn't her result. The result is even light sef. Sofia who has this?" with that she spanked him and we all started laughing.

    Before he was asked. Joseph ripped his envelope open and his result was very very good. I'm so proud of my best friends. We were rubbing off on each other for sure.
    I looked at my envelope and being over confident. I ripped my envelope and stared at my results. I was shocked. My neco and my waec results was very weak. No single B, no A's. Only credit and the grades after it.

     "I'm sure it's so good. Your mouth is even wide open. Show us. I'm curious", Joseph said and snatched it away from me and was shocked too. Sofia didn't say anything. They both kept looking at me. And I broke down. I refused to cry all these months. It felt like I just needed something this big to trigger the emotions. I cried like never before. I was never prepared for the exam because of what Samuel did to me. I was too depressed to read but I felt I would do well. Because I have always read all my life. I never knew just not reading once, would change things.

   I screamed, "I want to die. After all what my mum has suffered for me? How will I head home and give her this. She boasts about me to her friends and look what I have done. I have failed her. I'm a failure. I can't go home with this. I hate everything. I hate Samuel. He did this too me. I hate my life. My life sucks", I sobbed and refused to be consoled by anyone.

     "Failing an exam isn't the end of the world. You can write again next year. Please stop saying all these. Your mum will understand". Sofia said hugging me but I pushed her away.
    "Really write again? With which money? So easy for you to say. You both should leave me alone. I mean you will be going to London next month Sofia. You can never know what I'm feeling". I screamed and ran all the way home. Joseph and Sofia ran after me. Everyone kept starring at us in the neighborhood like we were mad. I only want my mum right now.