These past few days, Samuel has been acting alot different. He avoids me at any given opportunity. He replies my messages late and sometimes gives me the silent treatment. This is unlike him and I don't like it. We're finally in Ss3. We should be focused I know,but we also need each other to know more.
We could study together. Studying with Joseph has really helped me alot. We have been dating for three years now. Is this his way of telling us it's over? No it can't be. I love him so much. I think I need to initiate a conversation. I picked up my phone and luckily he was online on Whatsapp and he left a message. Hallelujah!
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Hey sweetie
Hello Sam. How.
are you doing?
I'm good baby.
We both know
that's not true. You
have been behaving
strangely. Like you don't
want to talk to me. I'm
sorry for whatever I
have done wrong.
Hmm,Tress I didn't know
my behavior was that obvious,
it's just that you ain't doing
what a girlfriend is meant to
do.
I don't understand.
Where is all these
coming from? What
things am I suppose to
do?
You should know!
But I don't. So tell
me already.
Can I call you?
Isn't it too late? Wait
my mum is coming.
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I heard my brothers voice from outside. He sounds sleepy. It only means they were back from the midnight programme. So soon? And I was going to tell Samuel to actually call to know what's up. Before I could turn off the lights. The door was wide open. Oops,too late. And I was still with my phone in my hands. Silly me!
"Treasure what're you doing awake by this time". I heard my mum voice trailing behind.
I shivered,I knew perfectly the rules of not being awake by this time. I would only get scolded at and maybe my phone seized. But it's not really my fault for wanting a distraction from my messy life. I just couldn't take it anymore,I was tired of thinking of my life
I was tired of blaming God for the circumstances before me. Sometimes I feel like a burden and sometimes I wished I was never born. Life is cruel and learning from your mistakes doesn't count anymore.
I have been told about how things would be fine by my mates. Encouraging words to keep me going, but it's simply not working. I would have committed suicide but I don't want to put my mum through that pain. She is my most favorite person in the universe.
"Tress I'm talking to you. What are you doing awake?" I could feel my mum presence right behind me and dare not move. "Mum I just woke up and was just scrolling through Facebook sorry". I said after waking up from my trance.
"You know the rules,no phones at night. Don't make me believe you have a boyfriend. Goodnight and put off that phone. Mum loves you. Goodnight Tress".
"Goodnight Mum,sorry for breaking the rules. It won't happen again. I love you too". I smiled at her and watched her leave.
I was actually texting my boyfriend.. Thank goodness he didn't call tho. That was really close, didn't want my mum to worry about me.
Yes my messy life! You must be wondering why it's messy? I mean it was alright a few months ago. I miss those days. Like they say, nothing good lasts forever. After my sister got married to John. Few months later she got pregnant but lost the baby because she fell down the steps and her womb had to be removed.
She has been depressed since then. At first John was all supportive and strong. But he changed! People do change! They leave you when you need them the most! He didn't leave like leave her. But,he did leave her. He started sleeping out. Bringing this particular girl named Dayo to their apartment, who claimed to be his girlfriend.
When I went over last two weeks,she kept telling me how I should tell my sister to leave the house before she gets pregnant. That she doesn't want to share the father of her child with anyone. Can you imagine? Now I do believe it the word 'husband snatcher' as real as it is!
Obviously,if my sister life is that way. Ofcourse mine will also be! Anything done to my loved ones affects me deeply! Why has God forsaken all of us? When things were getting better,the devil stroke and God let him. But they say, God knows best. My pastor always use to encourage me telling me how there is a reason for everything. A reason why we're still pushing forward. And I just can't figure out what my reason is. But it better be a good one!
My mum goes to church more often these days. She finds joy in worshipping God and if it helps her to take her mind off things. Then it's worth it!
Only Joseph and Sofia knows what's going on. They keep advising me. They're always there to support me. I can never trade them for anything in this world! Good friends do help to boast your self esteem.
I have tried to tell Samuel about it all the time. But he is always avoiding me. He should be here,to support me! This is the point where the possibility of me breaking down is high! I mean who won't break down? Knowing every weekend your sister comes to you and cries like a baby on how her life isn't worth living. One of my sister's wishes was to be a good mother. But how can that be,if her womb was removed?
These days it takes me alot of effort to maintain my position in school. Somehow reading helps to distract me from my problems.
Quickly I texted Samuel that we will talk tomorrow and before he replied,I put my phone on airplane mode. And I cried to bed,like every other night.
YOU ARE READING
Life SUCKS.
Teen Fiction"Treasure what're you doing awake by this time". I heard my mum voice trailing behind. I shivered,I knew perfectly the rules of not being awake by this time. I would only get scolded at and maybe my phone seized. But it's not really my fault for wan...
