Life SUCKS.

I WANT YOU.

    Samuel has been avoiding me since assembly. Is he pretending not to know we're supposed to talk? He changed his seat to the very last row to even avoid eye contact with me! What the hell is wrong with him. He is supposed to atleast tell me why he is doing this. He is hurting me deeply. And adding more worries to my problems. I have never wronged anyone in this life. I was even once bullied. Because of how weak I'm. I don't know how to defend myself because I know deep down, they're all right about what they say to me. I am a scholarship girl afterall.

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    Second period is finally over and our mathematics teacher is always late to class. An opportunity to speak to Samuel at the back. Normally,he would have been the one to come to my seat to talk to me because I'm shy. But, I never imagined tables do turn like in the movies. Trying to muster the confidence because of what I intend to do.

     "Hey what's wrong with you. You're sweating?" Joseph asked and Sofia stopped chatting and looked at me.
     "Treasure you're sweating so much. What's wrong?" Sofia asked like a caring mother putting down her phone.
     "Naa,it's nothing", I said wiping away my sweat with my pink napkin.
     "I know you,you only sweat like this when you're shy, scared or you're going to do something huge". Joseph said checking my temperature.

     "Is anyone trying to bully or scare you again. You can always tell us anything. I'm your bestie and will always be. So start
spilling, I'm not begging you. It is an order!".
     "It's nothin....", I began to say but they both gave me the dead glare. And I knew if I don't start talking they will create a sin. The last time they threatened the whole class. Until, Mary confessed and apologized for bullying me. I don't know what they are going to do today but I knew it is something really big.

    "Don't do something stupid like always please".
    "Treasure please stop. I'm serious start spilling. I won't let someone hurt you. You mean alot to me". Oh no, Joseph is getting all emotional and this is when he doesn't think straight.

       "Jeez, Samuel is still avoiding me and I was planning to actually go to the back where he is gisting to talk to him".
      "See I told you the day you started dating that boy,that he is not the one. But you won't listen to me. Now look how worried he has made you. This is the stage where you need all the support you can get and there he is fucking up. He is always fucking up!

  Maybe you didn't realize it then. But now I hope it rings a bell! Samuel is of no good".

    "In as much as you're my best friend. I won't let you say these nasty things about the one I love".
    "Oh you mean the one that doesn't love you?". Sofia returned.
     "Please stop it, we both know he loves me in his own way".
    "Oh really,by avoiding you? I really see the love and indeed I'm jealous", she said sarcastically and I was getting angry. She is trying to make me react and I will.
  
     "I know you have always tried to tolerate him for my sake these past years. But,you can't just come and start ranting nonsense just because we're having a misunderstanding. What's a relationship without the disagreement once in a while. What if he is going through things and doesn't want me to be involved".

      "That's the problem here Treasure. You're also going through things. Does that mean you should start avoiding everyone and start keeping your distance?" Joseph spoke after listening to us argue without a word.

     "Joseph you too? Really? Oh wow, and I thought I had the best friends in the word not knowing I was wrong all this while".
     "You see your problem Treasure. When I try to advise you as a really good friend. You start doubting our relationship and make it seem like we're just playing the whot card. In which you either win the argument or I do". Sofia said shouting. And now everyone was starring. Even Samuel was starring now!

      "Maybe it really is about Playing the whot card. And what I'm sure of is that I must surely win. You're my best friend,you should support me not advise me to leave my boyfriend". I screamed back and got alot of 'ohhss' from my classmate.
    "Okay girls playtime is over, calm down you both". Joseph said trying to calm us down.
   
  "She started it Joseph. I can't even imagine that one day Sofia will tell me to leave my boyfriend knowing how I can do anything for him".
    "You know what. Fuck off! Don't talk to me. I'm leaving this useless seat. Maybe Joseph should be your new seat partner. Knowing fully well 'how much of a best friend he is". She said air quoting the last few words.

    "Fine,you go. Nothing spoils,life goes on Sofia. Life goes on!".
     "Ofcourse life goes on.Why did I become your best friend in the first place. Stupid me! We're over, what we have is over. Until you're ready to apologize to me. Because this time you will realize I'm right. Samuel doesn't deserve you! You're better off without him".
And with that she packed her things and exchange seats with Joseph. And Samuel didn't say a word. He would have reacted if his name is being trashed but he didn't say anything. Does he feel guilty?
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   Immediately after closing time my phone vibrated. I sat down slowly and unlocked it and it was a text from Samuel. Thank God Joseph had to use the toilet. I read it out silently only audible to myself.
      --Meet me in the car at the car park now I'm waiting. You wanted to talk right? Come alone and don't tell anyone where you're going--
     I smiled and packed my things quickly. Squeezing my books in hurriedly. I have to leave before Joseph returns or he won't let me go. I ran off to  meet Samuel and the driver droved me to his house. I wasn't scared because I have been here before.
   Immediately we got into the sitting room he locked the doors. And walked up to me. Touching me intimately.
   "About yesterday? What I was going to tell you over the phone".
I moved back from him because I didn't like the way his hands were all over me.

  "Yes? So tell me what's it"
"We have been dating for three years now. My friends have been gisting me about how much they enjoy their girlfriends and all. I realized I haven't enjoyed this relationship at all". He said moving close to me again.
   "I don't understand, get to the point already. I have to go home you know. Just be plain. What do you want".
     "I want you. I need you".
   "I'm here Samuel. Always have been. Is that all? And you have been avoiding me. Jeez".
    "Stop reasoning like a child Treasure. I want you intimately. That will be enough for me. I love you!"
    "Sex?" I asked confused.
  "Yes sex, definitely not a big deal".