Life SUCKS.

Throwback.

I was shattered. I fell to the ground. Everything started to sink in. I'm broke again. I'm going to live in poverty again. Everything I have acquired gone within seconds and I couldn't do anything. I didn't have any good lawyers. He did he so perfectly. I was cheated by my own husband. The man I love,how could he? So this was all about my money. Our journey together,all because of my money. My three kids would be fatherless. Oh no,my hope scattered. I married a devil. What would I do now? How will I survive again? Do I really need to start from the scratch again. Do I need to go through all those suffering again? This time I will have to share the pain with my kids. I worked this hard all this years to make them comfortable. Why me?

I cried so hard,until everything went black.

*FEW MINUTES LATER***

I'm feel droplets of water landing on my face. Making me cold and weak. Is it raining? Make it stop.. I mentally screamed. This is all a dream,I replay but the droplets didn't stop. I'm stubborn so I refused to budge until I heard a familiar voice.

"Mum please wake up", I knew it was Treasure and she was crying. What's going on? Why is my children crying? That was enough to do the trick as I slowly opened my eyes.
"Oh mum,thank God you're alive. I thought you would leave me just like Aunt Amaka did. Why did you faint mum? Please don't do that again". It was my first daughter, Ella. I could feel the pain in her eyes. I wiped the tears off their faces with my tired hands. My throat was sore from all the shouting and screaming. "Water,I need water".

Treasure ran out immediately to get me water. She must have been worried sick. I looked around,but he was nowhere to be found. Then I remembered everything that transpired. I refuse to cry anymore, atleast not in front of my kids. I stare at Ella,she was looking at me worried eyes. I smiled to ease her worries. I have to stay strong for my kids.

I hear breaking of glass and I'm immediately alert. "Treasure why are you being careless", I scream and to start to get up. And then Treasure ran in panting. "Mum the landlord is here with some hefty men and they're throwing out things out. Dad saw them but ignored them and left mum. They're throwing all our properties out the balcony. I'm scared".

I ran out immediately with Ella trailing behind. They were about four men and they were throwing and seizing most of our properties. "Please, landlord just give me a month. I will arrange the money I beg you. Leave my properties alone. Just a little more time for my kids sake", I cried falling to my knees pleading.

I begged and begged,but it was in vain. We were homeless and broke. I was scattered and broken and had no where to go. You both know the rest of the story. Your dad was involved in an accident on his way to his house in Port Harcourt. I think that's God's way of punishing him. But the truth of the matter was that I was now a widow. I loved him so much and still love him. I mourned your father and luckily for us. My brother sent me a little amount of money to acquire where we're staying now".

I had cried bitterly after hearing all that,how could my mum have gone through that alone. She is so hardworking yet she ended up with someone who doesn't deserve her. I love my mom so much and I would go against the whole word for her. After hearing her heartbreaking story, although my father was dead and long buried I only had hatred left for him in my heart. I hate him so much,for being a betrayal,a cheater,a lier,a heartbreaker,a monster. I just hate every part of him. How could he have been so selfish. He didn't even love me or my siblings. If he did,he would have considered us, atleast left something's for us. But he didn't because he only cared about his other family. He never loved me,he was just a liar.

*****THE PRESENT*****

"Tress", I heard my name being called out by my mum.
"I'm coming mum", I screamed. "I guess this is all for today, dear diary. Atleast I was able to share most of my past with you. Byeee..till I pick you up again". I closed my diary with sadness with my eyes. I recalled the pain in my mum's eyes,shaked my head and finally headed to the kitchen.