Life SUCKS.

HE SMILED AT ME!

After the ride home and the lectures the principal gave us. Her disappointment was justified. I finally got home and surprisingly my mom wasn't bothered. Instead she was happy,that I got to have fun. She said the money wasn't necessary that we will survive as always. I looked at my brother and shaked my head. I failed once more. I wanted to cry but I decided not to. I know God will make a way.

  "You don't need to cry over spilled milk. You tried your best,I watched you try. You did well Treasure. No need to worry about it. And I don't want to see you crying or feeling bad either. This is just a trial,next time you will do better". Ella said assuring me.
    "No Ella you don't understand,I could have done better. I couldn't even fulfil my promise. I couldn't even win second price for my brother. How are we going to pay his school fees now?" I said sobbing.

   "What did I tell you about crying? Do you want me to loose it? Don't bother about the school fees either. I told my boyfriend about it and he paid yesterday. So by God's grace,he will be going to school on Monday. So cheer up".

I was so happy when I heard his school fees was paid. In a way I felt I didn't fail. Although I wasn't the one that paid his fees. What matters is that it was paid right? I suddenly felt energetic. I felt relieved. I felt successful. I smiled and went to my room happy.

    "Thank God,I don't have to think about paying his fees again. God please bless brother Joseph for me". With that I slept like a baby with no worry in the world.

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It was finally Monday. I have to go to school again. Don't get me wrong,I love school. But,I just don't like most of the people that make up the school. I'm not a star but they seem to be interested in anything that involves me. Oh well,I should better brace myself up for what's going to happen next.

    I walked into school head high. I suddenly felt different, felt stress free. And just as I was about to head to class I saw him. He was standing there waving at me like he did nothing wrong. Who else would disgust me more than Joseph does? Always feeling so high of himself.

    I know I shouldn't be bothered because the reason why I went for the competition has been achieved. But I still can't put away the fact that he was my barrier. I could have won,the chances were high. Until he ruined it,sorry I mean until they both ruined it. Yes, I mean my boyfriend! I miss him alot but I'm still angry with him.

   I looked at him and shaked my head. Way to ruin my morning. To top it all I haven't had breakfast and very good Johnson,I lost my appetite too. I ended up taking the longer route to class. Why? Because Johnson was right where I was suppose to make my first turning to class.

I opened the door of the classroom gently and the moment I stepped in I found people starring. This never gets old! I dress the same everyday,but yet I seem so attractive every single day. Am I under some kind of spell that makes everyone turn their heads when I'm there? If yes,I honestly don't like that spell.

    I ignore the turned heads and began to walk to my table head down. I finally took my seat. I didn't have enough time to look around but I knew for sure Samuel wasn't in class. Sofia too was missing. Way to go best friend! This is why I love you so much. Who will stand up for me now?

     I wasn't even given a moment to get used to my environment since I have been away for a long time. No Chioma the gossip mama never gets tired.
     "Guess who failed the school?" Chioma started,I could feel her gaze on me.
   "Oh you mean her? She is so guilty that she walked into class heads down. She couldn't even look us in the eyes. What a pathetic fool", Sandra added.
   I knew they watched the competition and knew it wasn't my fault. But no,any opportunity to paint me black will surely not be wasted. Obviously,they weren't gossiping,they were talking so loudly on purpose. Hoping to get a reaction from me I guess. But hell no! I'm not giving them that.

    The five of them continued to go on and on. Making me look like a villain. But I refused to make out their word's. I'm not letting anyone ruin my day further. My self confidence all went down the drain when I saw a hand on my locker. I look up and it's Tolu, Chioma's partner in gossiping. Could my day get any worse?

   I looked at her and suddenly felt bold. "What do you want? Please be quick. As you can see I'm busy updating my notes". I said politely.

    "So you're pretending you haven't heard a thing from what we have been saying abi? What's your problem? And also quit the "I'm busy attitude", She said air quoting. "It doesn't suit you. It doesn't suit your status. Poor people have nothing important to be busy with. Even your life is pathetic. Why haven't you hanged yourself already? Afterall your dad is dead. Your mum will be so glad seeing as she has less stomachs to fill". Suddenly I lost it,I lost the boldness. I could feel the tears coming. I couldn't be strong anymore. I will always be a poor weakling!
  She smiled getting the reaction she wanted. I couldn't hold it in anymore. I let the tears spill. Chioma and her gossip friends began to laugh knowing they have hit my weak point. 'My mum'.

   "Don't you have any shame? What has she ever done to you. For your information I was the one that lost the competition so all remarks should be directed to me. Leave her out of this. I mean speaking of families. Chioma, isn't it true your dad sent you out because he found out you weren't his biological daughter? Sandra didn't your father recently divorce your mother because she was cheating on him with his brother? Not to talk of you Tolu, you lost your womb because you couldn't handle the fact that you got a gift from God! A little foetus. Now don't point accusing fingers at anyone. When you haven't covered your flaws yet!
  I'm sure you're wondering how I know all these. I know alot about most of you here. And just one advice for you, you should all be careful about who you tell your secrets too. That good friend of yours could be the missing enemy. Be warned!" Joseph said so boldly and then he smiled. He smiled at me.