Life SUCKS.

Mood swings 2.

    I wasn't bothered,I just took what life had to offer. What mattered was that I was living good and we were all happy. Until, Joseph,my brother was diagnosed with kidney failure. He had just gotten married and I was his elder sister so I had to help him out. I paid for the surgery,the hospital bills and other formalities. The surgery took 70% of what I had in my account. And the house rent was due for renewal.

     So I did what was best,I told your dad I was tired of taking care of the expenses. That I had no money left,he had to man up. He said he understood perfectly,but he can't suddenly look for a job especially when he knew he can't work. I was deeply offended.

    "See I'm tired,I have been taking care of this family needs up till today. I watch the kids call you the owner of the car,but I said nothing. It's not about being tired,it's about being broke. I'm broke and you know it. I have spent my money on my brother so that he lives. I know I will still make more money from the canteen, but right now I'm broke. What's bothering me is the fact that we haven't paid our rent for three months now. I'm tired of pleading,the worst part is the money in my account isn't even up to settle half the debt". I shouted in anger.
     "See, about me looking for a job..we both know it won't work. I told you,I wasn't born to work okay. Yes I wasn't born rich,but you should be lucky I'm not dumping you...I'm only considering the kids. Let's get to business,I need let's say N500,000".

    "Excuse me! Is that all you have to say,so I'm the one born to work right? I'm tired of having you spend the money I suffer for like it grows on a tree".
   "I'm not joki...". I cut him off before he could reply. I was very angry and couldn't take anymore of his nonsense anymore. "I don't want to see you close to my ATM card or money from henceforth unless you become useless and actually find a job".

He laughed crutching his sides as his eyes began to water due to his uncontrollable laughter. "You know I'm only here for your money,if you keep your Atm card from me,I would simply just leave you and the kids. I honestly don't care,but I don't see myself looking for any job.. So deal with it. I give you one week to give me your Atm card or I leave and you know what's going to happen to the kids right? Fatherless uhn?".

   "You wouldn't..I don't want them to suffer what I did without a father. You wouldn't...you just..". I'm completely scattered and I felt my eyes water with my tears flowing down my cheeks.
  "Your cries don't mean anything to me anymore,I don't love you anymore after all. And I'm not joking either. Just one week". He said and stomped out of the room.

    My world was scattered."What have I done to deserve this. Has my marriage gotten to this stage when I'm blackmailed by my own husband?". That day I tried to avoid you both. I just couldn't let you see or feel my pain. That night I decided I won't be weak anymore. If he wants to leave then he should,I'm tired of this kind of marriage. It's was better we separated and I care for you three myself... than adding a grown man to the list.

        ***TWO DAYS LATER***

I was getting prepared to go to the canteen when he comes in smiling. I haven't seen him so happy in weeks,so it brought me joy seeing he was happy. I could finally smile,him smiling made me smile. I should probably fix things up since he is in a good mood. 
     "Won't you share why you're so happy? Hmm...let me share in the happiness". I asked working closer.
    "Oh my,you won't believe it. I'm so happy...soso happy. I did it".
   "Hmm...did what? Tell me please I'm excited". I said half jumping.
    "Since you're so impatient,yes I will... Well I stole your atm card", he paused trying to figure out my emotions. I was blank,he was joking. I know he was,and then reality hit me. "You did what??" I screamed.
   

   "Don't raise your voice to me,you were the one who refused to give me money. I wouldn't have transferred all the money from your account to mine,if you weren't so stingy. I mean why would you hid your card,and as if that wasn't enough you changed your password. It took me a whole day to figure it out. I mean I was without money for a whole day!!" He screamed back. Wait,what did he just say? He emptied my account? That's a lie...he can't take all the 1 million left in my account. That's a lie...he won't do something so petty. I mentally yelled at myself. My phone...my messages. Didn't they send me any messages for the transactions.. I won't cry until it's confirmed. He is just pulling my legs. He is probably just missing those days when he joked around.

      I grabbed my phone and searched through it like a mad woman. I opened my bank messages,and I saw it. My bank was empty. Reality hit me had,he just couldn't have done this. He can't be this selfish. He is probably just a trick.. he is going to transfer my money.. I know he will.. I broke down in tears.. As if that wasn't enough I received another shocking news.

    "Oh please this was all your fault,you made me hopeless and broke. I also our sold the canteen and our only piece of land. I was going to sell the car too but I'm not that wicked. You're still my wife after all". It was all too much for me. How could he? I cried so much my eyes became so swollen. Then as if, I got all my energy back. I stood up and grabbed his collar.

    "Why? How could you?.. After..after...after...all...I diddd for youuu". My voice shaked as I stammered. I tightened my grip on his collar as he coughed while trying hard to peel my fingers off.

  "I never loved you okay! I only married you for your money. And as for what I did with the money. I didn't waste it or anything. I have a second wife in Port Harcourt with two kids okay. I have been spending the money on them, ensuring they are all living a good life. And I also just completed my house in Port Harcourt and I will be leaving this evening to stay with them. I'm coming back for my kids tho, seeing you don't have money to take care of them anymore. I don't love you,I love her". He said ripping my hands off him.

    Reality hit me again. It's funny how it keeps hitting me. Is today just a bad day? Did I wake up on the wrong side of the bed? I'm just dreaming. Someone pinch me. This is a really terrible nightmare. I'm just dreaming I kept saying to myself.