Their Shattered Angel

The point of no return

~Magnolia Knight~

I can't do it...he will hate me if he figures that out...my secret.

I am currently standing in front of my brother, but he doesn't know who I am, tears are streaming down my face, because I know I have no other choice, but to show myself. And if I do, my passion will be shattered into so many pieces, because my brothers will definitely ban me from this car community. Blake knows the nickname, so he knows what Jace and I have accomplished, he knows about the dangers that surround us...

"How dare you take his place and pretend to be him, asshole !"Blake spits out, pure venom laced in his words as he refers to Jace. It hurts that he thinks something like this about me, but I can't Balme him, especially not when he is in this situation.

I shift my gaze that was lamely looking at the dusty road, up towards the owner of Belladonna, my brother, to see him slowly starting to squeeze the trigger. I let the gun that I was hiding in my hand fall to the ground and I bring my hands up in the air to show him that I am harmless and that I surrender, before he gets the chance to pull the trigger and kill his own sister. Killing me would destroy him more than ever and I can't let that happen, I prefer destroying my own soul than be selfish and hurt him.

I see Blake doesn't back down with his gun, like he should, so I grip my helmet with both hands and start to pull upwards...

I don't move my gaze away from my brother, as I take my helmet off, letting my dark hair fall on my shoulders and only with this small move, the identity I tried to hide and protect from the people is set free to the outside world...

My eyes bore into Blake's eyes and I watch as his previous strong posture collapses, leaving place to utter shock. His gun slips from his hand, and he doesn't move one bit as he looks right back at me to try and understand what is happening.

"L-Lila ?"

His whisper is so quiet that I can barely hear it. Somehow I don't miss the disappointment in his voice, which makes me coward down, so I let my eyes trail back to the floor, which makes the tears that are streaming down my face crash directly against the cold surface. The disappointment makes my inner self shatter a little more, but it doesn't stop there.

"H-how could you ?" Blake speaks up again as I hear his footsteps back away from me. "How is it possible ? This was fucking amazing ! it can't be...you couldn't have raced this car...no..." I hear as the tone in his voice changes, turns into the direction of anger, as it seems that realisation hits him with full power. The shaken and amazed tone switches to an angry tone, which makes me only want to crawl into a small ball to protect myself. "Are you MJ ?"

"yes" my voice is so small that even myself can barely hear it, but Blake heard it, because he takes a sharp inhale, as if to compensate the shock of this information.

"MJ...MJ..."Blake mumbles under his breath and I look up to him, to see him in deep thoughts. "fucking hell ! MJ stands for Magnolia and Jace. Am I right !?"His voice suddenly booms through the cold night, chasing the calm silence away. I nod quietly, as more tears fall down my cheeks. It's over for us J...

"You were the fucking girl he was talking about. You fucking knew him. SHIT !  He dragged you into this car racing didn't he Magnolia ?" he angrily questions once again, but this time it's like I am beginning to get angry, he can't but the blame on him.