Cream Knows Best 3

Regrets

Cream's P.O.V

My heart stopped as I watched his attention turn from the door to me. "C-Cream! Oh my gosh! I've been looking for you forever!" he cried and raced down. Before he could grab me or hold me, I backed away, both Charmy and Tails coming to my defense. "What are you doing here Kai?" I asked annoyed. His face was so pitiful and his tail went between his legs. 

"I... I can't tell you!" he cried, tears coming down his cheek. "Well... then clearly it's not worth talking to you." I decided and turned around. "Cream, please! It's not like that!" he cried once more.

To be honest I felt bad... plus... I do want to know why he left me on hold for so long. I looked over at Tails and Charmy who shrugged their shoulders. "If you don't want him around, we can always call Shadow." Tails whispered. "It's okay, I can handle it." I reassured. Both looked at each other briefly. I knew they understood. "Alright... just let us know if you need us. We're not too far."

Both of them walked away and glared at Kai as they walked away. Cheese looked at me worried and clung to me. "It's okay Cheese. I need to handle this by myself. Go inside." I told him softly. "Chew chew..." he whimpered. All three went away and as soon as I knew they were gone, I faced Kai, not scared of him or what he could do.

After all, if he still loved me he wouldn't do a thing to me. "Princess, I'm sorry-"

"No, you're not. And don't call me that."

"I am sorry... I didn't mean to just disappear! Or ghost you! I should've been there but I couldn't! Please just let me explain!" he cried.

I poked at the ground with the toe of my shoe. "Cream... I wasn't purposely ignoring you! I didn't have a choice!" he went on. "Then what was going on?!" I snapped. "I can't... I can't tell you... But it wasn't anything bad!" 

"Sureeee. And I wasn't ignored for days on end." Kai walked up to me, trying to pull me in for a hug but I quickly pushed him off. "Don't touch me. You don't have the right after leaving me the way that you did!" I shouted again. "For the last time, it's not like that!" "Then tell me! WHAT HAPPENED!  What happened that you couldn't be there for me!"

"I can't tell you!"

"Well then consider us done!" 

Kai raced towards me before I could walk away. He grabbed my arm, holding on tightly. "No! Cream no! Don't do this!" he whimpered. "I made up my mind. So unless you can be honest and tell me, don't expect me to talk to you ever again." I replied, loosening the grip he had on me. "Okay fine! I'll tell you!" he sobbed. "Just... can we go behind those trees over there?" he whimpered.  At first, I didn't think it was a good idea, but to be honest, he couldn't hurt me more than he has already.

We both went behind the trees. He looked around, tears falling down his cheeks, fear showed up in his eyes. "Before I do anything... I am sorry... I didn't have a choice..." he cried. Then he began to take off his shirt. My eyes widened in horror. He had scars, scratches, stab wounds, stitches, and a huge patch on his lower abdomen. I gasped in horror and I covered my mouth. "K-Kai... what happened?" I asked shocked.

"D-Do you remember that gang... the one that tried taking you?" he asked. "Yes, I do. But what-" "Well, they hurt me... they were mad cause I rescued you from them. Apparently, they were going to use you for some... pretty messed up things... They struck me on my head. I don't remember too much after that... But... I woke up and they had done so many things to me..." he said.

"All they said was that they wanted me to remember what I had done. They wanted me to live with the trauma... They abused me more in different ways... Cream I was ashamed... I didn't want you to see me like this... Plus... I didn't want you to think that if I can't protect myself, that I couldn't protect you... I know I'm a sorry excuse... Yet all I can think about is how much I love you." he went on. "I know I'm too late... But... at least now you know..."

My heart dropped. He was hurt... And all I did was hurt him more. "Kai!" I cried, coming up to him and I kissed his cheek. His ears perked. "I should be the one who's sorry... I was so angry. I didn't even stop to ask what could've possibly happened. You're so hurt too... Oh, Kai. You should never feel ashamed..." I said, reaching up to touch his face.

He even had scars on his face that I missed. I teared up and let myself cry. "Why was I so mean to you!" I sobbed, embracing him in a hug. I felt him tense up before hugging me gently. "Please don't cry Cream... I was being the idiot." he reassured.

I held onto him, refusing to release him from my hold. He didn't seem to have a problem with it though. It was like this right up until the sun started going down. He had clung to me for hours on end. He needed it. While the sun went down, I gently bumped his arm, trying to wake him up from a small nap. "Hey, Kai. You need to head home. It's getting late." I told him. He was silent and just stared at the ground. "I... I don't have a home." he whispered.

"Come... I won't make you go out there alone..." I reassured him, taking his hand. Together we headed to our dorm. Charmy and Tails looked up from what they were doing. They didn't say anything to me but they got the message to let it slide. "We're going to bed. Just make sure you don't leave the kitchen light on again!" I told them, giving a hint of humor. "Alright. Sleep well!" they told me. Cheese chewed knowing to give me space tonight.

Leading him to my bedroom, Kai tried his best to adjust to my dorm and stay with me and the rest of my friends. "Relax... you're still so tense... you have nothing to worry about. I'm here. No one is going to hurt you while I'm here. Now, sit down and try to calm down. I'm going to change into my pajamas!" I told him before going into the bathroom.

Quickly changing I hurried back out into my room and saw Kai sitting there worriedly. With the light on in the room, I was able to notice the bags under his eyes. "When was the last time you really slept?" I asked. "Uh... a while..." he sighed. I sat with him. Soon I made him lay down next to me. He relaxed as I caressed his face carefully with my fingers. "Cream, thank you." he replied softly.

"I'll always be here for you Kai. I'm sorry I should've asked sooner." He leaned in and kissed me gently. "To be honest... I don't deserve it. I left you to deal with everything on your own... Cream what do you even see in me?" Kai wondered, giving me a sad look. "Kai, you have a good heart. I should've known something was off... Stop dwelling on it. You've been through enough. Now rest. You'll need it!" I smiled.

We cuddled up to each other and I let Kai wrap his arms around me. I pulled the blanket over ourselves and his whole body relaxed a bit more. "You're safe. Just hang onto me. We're both okay now. I understand. You understand. Just promise me you'll talk when there's something going on." I told him.

"I promise." I smiled, kissing him once more. "I love you Kai. Get some rest." His tail gently brushed against me and he put his head on top of mine. "Love you too Princess."

A few snores later, we had both drifted off to sleep.