Caught Up In Your Lies(Ricky Olson FanFic)

Chapter 40

"So, Blade Sola, will you marry me?" He asked.
I nodded frantically and he slips the ring on my finger. As he does this, there's a flash and Devin appears with his phone in his hand, smiling like an idiot.
Ricky gets up and hugs me tightly and I kiss him over and over.
The ring is black with a red ruby in the middle.
"I helped him pick it out." Devin says after he posts the picture on Instagram and other social media.
I run to Devin and hug him.
"Thanks big brother. I love you." I told him, smiling like the Cheshire Cat.
I release him and go back to Ricky, who is smiling.
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Later That Day~
We're at a restaurant and all the guys from Motionless In White and their girlfriends were there celebrating Ricky and I's engagement.
"So, Blade, what do you want to do for your wedding?" Allie asked me.
"I'm not sure yet. I need a few more weeks to think about it." I say, unsure of my response.
My stomach started to turn and I felt it coming up.
"Excuse me." I hurriedly said to Allie and ran to the restroom.
I emptied the contents of my stomach into the toilet and took a moment to calm down. A small smile crept it's way onto my face at the realization.
I've gotten pregnant a lot and had many miscarriages and one abortion that I deeply regret, but I'm going to try everything in my power to keep this child alive.
I stood up, flushed, and washed my face to cool me off.
"Allie, guess what?" I whispered to her when I sat down.
"What?" She whispered back.
"I think I'm pregnant." I smiled and she squealed. The guys looked at us weird and we burst out laughing.
The waiter delivered our food to us and we ate and then we got in our cars.
We left the restaurant and played some music on the way back. "Blade, I love you." Ricky told me, smiling happily.
"I love you too." The words seemed to echo into the unusually tense air in the vehicle. It was like the calm before the storm almost.
I stared at the road, watching the cars pass by and the ones that switched lanes in front of us.
Something felt different, almost scary. I started to fidget in my seat and much to my horror, Ricky noticed.
"Hey, are you okay?" He asked, putting a hand on my thigh.
"Um, yeah. I'm fine." I said, hesitantly looking at him with an unsure smile.
"Blade, seriously." He sternly replied and I felt my heart tightening, tears formed in my eyes, and I screamed at the tops of my lungs as a seemingly drunk driver came toward us at top speed. I clenched Ricky's hand the was on mine as the world faded to black and I could no longer feel a heart beat.
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Ricky's POV~
"Blade! Oh my god, wake up!" I screamed weakly as I tried to shake my fiancé awake who was already dead as her eyes were wide open, the life drained from them.
Blood was rushing from her head and glass from the wind shield was stuck into different places of her body.
I cradled her lifeless form in my arms on the side of the rode while our friends came rushing towards me trying to communicate, but I was in such a form of despair, all I heard was the last I love you I ever heard from her.
My face was buried in her neck and I was screaming, screaming for this to not be real.
I was so troubled by her death that I didn't feel any of my own wounds.
I was focused on the love of my life and the life we could've had.
Paramedics soon arrived along with the coroner and they took her from me once again, only to never be returned.
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Several Days Later~
"Blade, my sister, had a rough start in life. She was depressed since birth basically because our father blamed her for mom's death. She self harmed at the age of 9 and didn't stop until she was 20 and then she had her rough patches her and there. But she was finally at the right place in life, she was about to get married, she was pregnant. She had another life growing inside of her. One she plan to keep and raise. She lost her life and another being's life." Devin said, and my heart stopped at pregnant. I had no idea she was pregnant. After Devin's speech, it was my turn.
  I walked up and took a deep, unsteady breath as tears gathered in my eyes.
  "Blade. Uh, wow. I've known her basically all my life. She's always been the girl next door for me. She never remembered it but we would always sneak out together and watch the stars as children. Her father did this brainwash thing on her when me and my family moved away and she doesn't remember any of the things we planned for each other and I knew that so I never spoke to her really because I was afraid of her father. She would always run to me when he would start to get physical. I was going to marry her. Have a future with her. But that drunk driver took away my life, my other half, my heart." At that point I start to lose it.
"The worst part of this whole thing, I didn't even know she was pregnant. My son or daughter died along with the love of my life. She was finally in her happy place and she was going to stay that way. I should've known something bad was going to happen because she was looking uneasy and fidgeting in the seat right before the car hit us. I could've done something. Blade, if you can here me, I love you. So much. And I'll see you soon." I walk over to her coffin and kiss her forehead.
   They close it and we move to the burial grounds and I drop the letters I wrote for her into her coffin and crumble to my knees, crying as rain falls to join my sorrowful goodbye.
  There are hands placed on my back in ways of comfort and I lose it even more.
  "Ricky, come on. Let's get you out of here." Chris says and I want nothing more than to slap him right now because he knows how much she means to me.
  "Ricky."
"No." I say so calmly they understand the picture.
After everyone is gone and nightfall approaches, I'm still looking at her grave, wishing this was all a sick twisted dream but this time, sadly, it isn't. This is the ugly truth I have to carry with me for the rest of my life, preventing me from loving another.
  No one will compare to Blade ever. She was always be the love of my life, my heart, my other half.
   The rain stopped along with my ability to feel anymore. She's gone. She's really gone.
"Dear Ricky,
This will probably get lost in time, but I love you. I love you so much. I'm a teenager writing this in the lapse of my brainwash my dad gave me. He will start it again and I won't remember any of the times we had as children but just know you'll always be my favorite person and the love of my life. Your cheeky smile is so adorable and the way you're so good with words, your obsession to read is like my obsession to paint. We were always the quiet ones and I will give you this letter to always know that at one point I remembered how happy I could be. But you've left and you didn't even say goodbye. This hurts my heart, like you don't even care but I know you do. You love me and I you.
  
    -Blade."
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  THE END.
please don't kill me. I love you guys and I enjoyed writing this horribly depressing story but I feel it had to end this way. I'm sorry that this story is so "emo". But you guys love it. Brw the song applies to then ending of this story obviously. Okay bye.
~Ashley