Caught Up In Your Lies(Ricky Olson FanFic)

Chapter 17

I woke up, my aching body pressed against someone else's. I looked to see it was Ricky.
What the fuck am I doing in Ricky's bed?
Did I fail to mention that I got drunk off my ass last night and did drugs? No? Okay.
I ripped the covers off of Ricky and his bed and wrapped it around my body.
I accidentally woke Ricky up by doing that and tried to hide but failed.
"What did we do last night?" I asked, hiding my body in the blanket.
"Isn't it obvious?" He said, putting on black boxers.
"I was drunk and I was fucked up on drugs. I don't fucking remember. And I sure as hell don't want to do it again." I hissed as I found my clothes.
"Harsh." He said as he sat back down on his bed.
"Yeah. I know." I said and swiftly put on my clothing.
"You can go to hell Olson." I said as I left his room and slammed the door loudly.
I got Advil for the headache, my depression medication, and laid down in the guest room, only taking the Advil.
I curled up in a ball and cried. I hated feeling this way towards Ricky but I can't help it.
He cheated on me and it hurts.
There was a knock on the door and I opened it because it was Devin.
"Hey..." I said, wiping away tears.
"Hey, what's wrong?" He asked, concerned clear in his voice.
"Nothing. Just thinking about the past." I lied.
"Did you take your medicine?"
"Yes." Lie.
"Okay well, get some rest. You look like you need it." He said, gave me a hug, and left.
I looked in the mirror and cringed.
I looked horrible. Why do I even do drugs?
I sighed and rubbed my eyes.
I felt bad for being mean to Ricky and I wanted to just cuddle up to him but I'd rather not confuse myself like that so I laid down on the bed and fell asleep, cuddled up to a pillow.
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I woke up hours later with a person in my arms.
What? I fell asleep with a pillow.
I looked at the tattoos and wanted so badly to pull away but instead I just squeezed him and buried my face into his chest because that's what my heart told me to do.
He tightened his grip around me and nuzzled his face into my hair.
I smiled and asked, "How'd you turn into a person pillow?"
He laughed. "I replaced your pillow because you were cuddling the shit out of it and I wanted it to be me even though you're mad at me and I kind of cheated on you." He said softly.
"My brain says to push you away but my heart says pull you closer..." I whispered to him.
"Listen to your heart. You're brain isn't always right..." He said, kissing my forehead.
"I'm sorry for cheating on you Blade. I don't know why I even did it. She seduced me even when I told her I had a girlfriend that I loved more than my own self..." He continued.
"Sh...It's okay." I said.
He leaned down and kissed me, a tear falling on my cheek that left his eye.
I pulled away and wiped away the tears on his face.
"Don't cry Ricky." I said, sounding like I was about to cry.
He kissed me passionately again.
"God, I love you so much." He said after we pulled away.
"I love you too." I said and buried my face in his chest again.
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