I shot up, drenched in sweat. I looked to my right where Ricky usually sleeps.
He wasn't there and I panicked. I quickly got up and looked everywhere in the house except the bathroom.
I was hesitant but I slowly opened the door and fell to my knees when he wasn't there.
I was wearing the same thing as yesterday from work.
I broke down and tangled my hands in my hair. I can't do this anymore...
I got up and gathered several pieces of paper and a pen.
I wrote out my farewell note:
If you've ever lost anyone you've loved, you will know the pain I'm feeling as I'm writing out this note. Ricky was literally all of me and I'm just a hollow shell, living without a purpose. The child I bare will remind me too much of him and I can't keep living with this constant sadness. I can't make it through this pregnancy to give her up. I can't live life without Ricky. I'm sorry for those of you who loved me. Goodbye. Love, Blade.
I took a deep, shaky breath and grabbed the biggest knife in the kitchen I could find.
I went upstairs to my room and laid down on my bed.
I looked back at me and Ricky's memories and smiled while tears streamed down my face.
I grabbed my phone and simply said Goodbye to everyone on my social media accounts and in personal texts.
Tears were flowing at the point and I set the note on my slightly big stomach and gripped the knife.
I raised my arms and penetrated it into my heart, killing myself instantly.
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Caught Up In Your Lies(Ricky Olson FanFic)
FanficBlade was 12 when her neighbor, Ricky Olson left. They never talked, just stared at each other. What is to come when he returns after five years, on Halloween, Blade's birthday, who is now 17? (Read At Your Own Risk)
