Twin Flames X Jemily

3- Nightmares

JJ's pov:
We were finally home from the case. I walked into my apartment door and immediately went into my bedroom and crashed down on the bed.

It was almost 11pm and I was too exhausted to shower or even change clothes. My arm still hurt but I guess that's what happens when you get shot.

I was hardly able to keep my eyes open long enough to take off my shoes. The second my head it the pillow I was completely out.

"Emily! Emily wake up!" I begged leaning over her bloodied and bruised body. I brushed the hair out of her face and saw the bullet straight through her head.

I felt tears falling down my face. I stared into her hollow eyes. She was dead. I heard a cold laugh from behind me. I turned around and fired my gun over and over and over again.

But he didn't fall. He just stood there laughing at me. "This is your fault Jennifer. You did this."

I woke up in a cold sweat. I glanced over at the clock. 6:15. I had to get up. I couldn't get over that nightmare though. I mean I get them a lot about unsubs and death and all that stuff. I mean it's not surprising really considering our jobs.

But I don't get them about team members. Or anyone I know really. It's never happened and it messing with my brain. And of all people why Emily? Why did I have that dream?

I tried to just shake it off like nothing happened as I got up and made my bed. But it was still in the back of my brain. Replaying over and over again. While I showered, got dressed, brushed my teeth, did my hair, all I got picture was Emily's body laying there cold and lifeless.

I went downstairs and poured some coffee into my travel mug before grabbing my go back and heading into my car.

I tried to blast music to distract myself. It worked a little bit and I was still grateful for that. I got to the bau at only 6:50 which is pretty early. Almost everyone got there at 7:30.

I headed into the bullpen and of course I saw Emily leaning against her desk. When she saw me she walked over. "Hey JJ. You're earlier than usual."

"Yeah.." I stammered. I could feel the colour draining from my face. Emily was perfectly fine. She was here right in front of me. Alive and healthy. So why do I feel this way?

"JJ are you okay? You look like you've seen a ghost or something." She chuckled. Damn am I really that transparent?

"No no I'm fine. Just a bad night I guess." I shrugged it off. "Oh I'm sorry. I'm always here if you want to talk about it." She squeezed my shoulder and walked away.

I got these weird butterflies in my stomach when she touched me. I mean I always had a little crush on her but I was always "straight". Or at least that what my parents kept telling me.

Emily is amazing. And she's also my best friend. I don't want to ruin that with a stupid crush. It's not like she would like me back, so really it would just be awkward.

I walked up to my office and started working on some paper work. Right now my goal is to completely focus on these files and just forget about everything else that's going on.

It was 7 hours later. I think my plan was a little too successful. I hadn't left my office once and I don't think I had even looked up. When I finished the case file and went to grab the next one, I realized that they were all gone.

I had finished my entire days work and it was only 2pm. When I finally snapped back into reality I realized that this was a stupid plan. I was super hungry because I hadn't eaten anything all day and both of my feet were asleep because I hadn't moved at all.

I was about to get up when I heard a knock at my door. "Come in!" I called. Emily walked in and shut the door behind her. "Hey." I said.

She was holding a bag that she set down at my desk. "Get up." She said. "What?" "I said stand up." She repeated.

I slowly stood up but my legs felt like jello and I almost toppled over to the ground. Emily caught my hand pulling me up and holding it until I was steady again. "JJ you haven't left your office since this morning."

"Yeah I know I was just busy." I mumbled. It's true I have been working nonstop on case files for 7 hours straight. "You haven't eaten or drank anything all day and by the looks of it I don't think you've moved either." She said looking down at my still wobbly legs.

She reached into the bag and pulled out a Turkey and cheese sandwich handing it to me. That was my favourite. "Oh my gosh I love you." I said taking the sandwich. Shit did I say that out loud?

"I know." I said playing it off as a joke. I sat down on the couch and started eating hungrily. She sat down next to me. The sandwich was gone in like 2 minutes.

"Here drink this." She said handing me a water bottle. I opened it and started taking huge sips. "Emily you know you don't have to do this." I said quietly.

"I know I don't have to. But I want to. Because it would kind of suck for me if you starved to death from never leaving your office." She laughed.

"JJ what's wrong? I know you said it was nothing but clearly somethings bothering you." She said a little more seriously.

"It's stupid." I muttered. "It's not stupid if it's bothering you. You said you had a 'bad night'. What did you mean by that?"

I sighed. "It's not a big deal I just had a nightmare and I just couldn't shake it." I shrugged.

"Well what was it about?" She asked. "Nothing." I lied. "That's bullshit try again." She responded.

"Fine. It was about this friend that I have. And they got hurt and I wasn't able to save them." I muttered. "It's stupid it's just a dream."

"That's not stupid. You're an FBI agent you see stuff like that all the time and of course it's going to be scary to thing that it could happen to someone you know." She said.

"Yeah but I never get dreams like this. This doesn't happen to me I can always just shove it down but I can't do it this time." I said angrily.

"Jennifer you can't shove down all your emotions and expect it to all be fine. You're human it won't work." Emily said.

"Well that's dumb" I rolled my eyes.

"Why don't you come over to my apartment after work and we can talk about it okay?" She asked me.

"Emily are you sure? It's not your problem I don't want to be a burden on you." I sighed.

"Yes JJ I'm sure. You are never ever a burden to me. Trust me if you talk it out it feels better. Meet me at eight?" She assured me. I nodded.

"Okay." She smiled. She squeezed my hand lightly before getting up and walking out of the office leaving me alone with my thoughts.

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