Twin Flames X Jemily

11- Fake Sleeping

JJ's pov:
I woke up early in the morning and Emily was already awake. I closed my eyes before she saw I was awake.

Everything that had happened came back to me and I remembered how badly last night went. I totally fucked up.

I knew that I never meant for Emily to find out like that but deep down I can't help but wonder if maybe it's a good thing. I wasn't going to tell her myself and maybe it's better if she knew.

She didn't break up with me like I thought she would so I was happy about that.

I could feel Emily staring at me trying to tell if I was awake or not. I opened my eyes again blinking away the bright light.

Before I got a chance to say anything I heard a knock at the door. "Unless you feel like talking to the team right now, I would recommend doing that fake sleep thing again." Emily said getting out of bed.

She was right I really didn't want to talk to them right now. I just wasn't in the mood. I put my head down and shut my eyes.

I couldn't really hear the conversation but I think it was Tara, Reid, and Derek. About five minutes later I heard the door shut and I opened my eyes.

Emily walked over to me and kneeled by the bed so she was in front of me. "So are you going to keep fake sleeping or are you going to talk to me now?" She asked. "I'm awake." I sighed.

She gently kissed my temple and sat next to me. "So what did they want?" I asked looking over to the door. "Well they asked if you were okay." She said. "Well what did you say?"

"I told them you were fine because I figured that's what you wanted them to think. I know that it's a load of bullshit though. You may have a whole room of profilers fooled but not me." Emily sighed.

She was right. I was lying but I thought I had everyone fooled. "Well I'm a good liar." I laughed. It was no point lying to her anymore because I already humiliated myself last night by letting her find out so she's going to want to know everything.

"JJ we need to talk. You know we do." Emily said. I was trying to avoid the conversation I knew was coming. I either needed to work up the courage to tell her everything, or I need to think of an extremely good lie. I think it might be a little late for that know is it's going to have to be the first option.

"Can we talk about it later. I'm exhausted." I whispered. "Okay." She leaned down and kissed the top of my head. "But I know what you're doing and for the record you can't keep putting it off forever."

"I know I know." I sighed. I just work to yet I still felt tired. Almost more tired then when I fell asleep. I think I cried myself to sleep last night actually.

"The storm in dc is subsiding so the jet will probably leave tonight." Emily said looking at her phone. I nodded. I was happy about going home.

"Why don't you rest I'll pack up all your stuff." Emily said getting up. "Thanks." I said softly leaning my head back against the pillow.

I shut my eyes tight. I could hear Emily moving around. I was so tired but yet I could sleep. I kept thinking about the basement and the man. I realized I didn't even remember his name. Someone probably told me but I can't remember.

He just laughed in my face. "I'm not going to rape you if that's what you're worried about. That's not my thing. I have something else in mind."

Just as I fell asleep I woke up instantly to that playing in my head. I'm not sure if I had screamed or something but Emily was immediately by my said wiping the tears off of my face. I love her.

"JJ will you eat something please. Or drink some water?" She softly brushed the side of my face. I didn't really want to eat. I wasn't hungry. But then again I hardly ever am.

I don't like eating. It makes me feel gross. How I was raised was a skinny girl is pretty. And I wanted to be pretty so Emily would love me.

I avoided eating as much as I could so I would stay skinny. Sometimes I would make myself throw up my food if I ate too much. But it's okay because that means I stay skinny.

I think I zoned out a bit. "JJ did you hear me?" Emily said waving her hand in front of my face. "Oh yeah uh I'm not hungry." I said.

"JJ you need to eat something. How about a sandwich or something? I can go grab one from downstairs." She said. Finally I just said yes. "Okay sure."

"I'll be right back will you be okay?" She asked me. "Yes I can be alone for five minutes." I laughed. "Yeah yeah I know. Love you." She kissed me quickly before going downstairs.

~on the jet~
I was sitting near the back of the jet with Emily next to me. She had her headphones in so she could hear anything.

I was leaned against her shoulder about to fall asleep when I heard my name. Reid and Morgan were sitting close to us and tara was across from them. Hotch and Rossi were in their own worlds.

I swore I heard Morgan say my name again. They were talking about me. They glanced at me to see if I was listening but I quickly closed my eyes and pretended to be asleep.

They bought it and went back to talking. I kept my eyes closed by listened intently. I was pretty curious what they were talking about that had to do with me.

"I told you I went in the hotel and I saw JJ asleep in one of the beds. But there were two beds and one of them was perfectly made." Derek said.

"So?" Asked Tara. "Emily slept in that hotel room. If there were two beds why would they sleep in the same one?" Asked Derek.

"Is it really important?" Reid said. "Well I mean isn't it weird?" Derek said.

"It's not really girls sleep in the same bed." Tara shrugged. "Really? I would never sleep in the same bed as Reid" Morgan laughed. "Hey!" Reid shouted.

"I mean look at the two of them right now." Said Tara. "JJ's curled up on Emily's shoulder asleep. You really can't imagine them sleeping in the same bed? Especially after JJ's been completely traumatized? Maybe she was just scared."

"I guess you're right. Although I always thought those two might be more than friends." Derek sighed. "Wait are they even gay?" Asked Reid.

"I don't know." Derek shrugged. "I guess I just imagined it."

"I mean I see it. When I first started I thought they might actually be a couple. They act like one." Tara laughed.

I stopped listening after that. Were me and Emily not being careful enough? It seemed like they were about to figure it out.

I mean the good part is if or when we do decide to tell the team hopefully they won't be super upset about it. I'm pretty sure they're already placing bets.

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