Twin Flames X Jemily

20- Torn Apart

Emily's pov:
"Emily no! Stay with me! Squeeze my hand if you can hear me." I heard Derek's voice in my foggy head.

My whole body felt tired and just squeezing his hand took all of the energy I had left. I blacked out after that and woke up partly in an ambulance.

"Her blood pressure is dropping!" Someone shouted. I heard a loud sound and my entire body felt some sort of buzz. Then I felt nothing.

I saw nothing. It was perfectly silent. It was just cold, and dark. I tried to move but it was like I didn't exist anymore.

After that I'm not sure what happened, but I think a lot of time had passed. I had ended up in a hospital bed. There was a tube stuck down my throat that felt like it was chocking me.

I nurse immediately ran into the room. "Agent Prentiss don't fight the tube. It's helping you breathe." She told me. I tried to tell her I understood, but nothing came out of my mouth.

Instead of I just nodded my head. A doctor came in a few minutes later and pulled the tube out of my throat. I could finally breathe normally again and it felt good.

Then I saw Hotch walk into the room. "What happened? How long has it been? Did you find Doyle?" I stated asking him questions.

"Emily you got impaled my a stake. You were in surgery for about 7 hours." He told me. "But what about Doyle?" I asked. I already had a bad feeling.

"He got away..." Hotch said staring at the floor. Dammit. "Can I see the team now? Do they know I'm okay?" I asked him.

"Well that's the thing." Hotch said quietly. "Emily Ian Doyle is still looking for you. While you were in surgery, we made a choice to keep you safe."

"What kind of "thing"." I asked. He sighed, "we told the team that you didn't make it. If Doyle things that you're dead, he won't come looking for you."

"What?? They think I'm dead?" I was shocked. How could he do something like this? "You have to tell them the truth!" I yelled.

"Emily it's for the best. You be relocated until we find Doyle, and when we do, you can come back. We can explain it to them and hopefully they'll understand." He said.

I didn't have a chance to fight it before he quietly said "I'm sorry." And then walked out of the room. How could this happen? The teams going to hate me.

Just then JJ walked into my room. She was smiling. "JJ." I grinned. "Emily. I told you not to die on me." She said with a small laugh.

"Well I'm still here." I smiled. "Hotch told you about the plan?" She asked. I nodded. I guess she was in on it. "It's not going to be forever. Just until we find him." She said softly. "Yeah. Yeah you're right." I tried to smile.

"So do you know what happened to him? Do we have any leads yet?" I asked her. "No after he escaped the building he disappeared. Garcia checked all the security cameras and still, she found nothing."

I nodded my head and bit my lip. Ian Doyle was still out there. Even though he thought I was dead, he still hated me. If he managed to find out the truth, I was so done for.

"Emily we're going to find him." JJ tries to assure me. "We are the best at what we do and you know it." She laughs. "Yeah yeah you're right. He can't disappear forever." I smiled.

"He's going to make a mistake. And when he does, we will all be watching." She said. "And then you get to come home and everything will be back to normal."

I really wanted to believe her, but a part of my brain just wouldn't let me. No matter how bad I wanted everything to go back to normal once I returned, I knew that wasn't going to happen.

"Yeah. Everything will go back to normal." I lied. If it made JJ feel better why take that away. I leaned up from the bed and pulled her face towards mine, kissing her lightly. "I love you." I said.

"I love you too. I have to go back now. It's all going to be okay." She said brushing my hand with her thumb, before walking out the hospital room door.

~Terrès café, Paris~
It was late at night and dark. I sat at the table just outside the cafe alone, waiting for JJ to show up.

Finally I saw her walking towards the table and sit down. "JJ." I said quietly.

She handed me a an envelope and a few files. "Bank accounts to keep you comfortable and passports to six different countries." She said staring at the table.

"JJ you know I love you right?" I said, my voice cracking. "I love you too Em." She whispered.

"But it's not fair to ask you to wait for me." I sighed. "Emily you're the only person I'll ever love."

"JJ I don't know how long I'm going to be gone. It's not fair to you. You deserve to be happy." Tears started to fall down my face. It was weird because I hardly ever cried.

"Emily you're crying." JJ smiled through tears. "Yeah because I'm going to miss you so much." I laughed as more tears fell down my face.

I stood up from my seat and so did she. "JJ the only thing I want is for you to be happy. I know you can be happy without me." I wrapped my arms around her hugging her tightly.

"Emily I love you." She hugged me tighter. "You're my soulmate jayje. But we cannot be a couple right now. Sometimes it's the right person, it's just the wrong time." I wiped my eyes.

"I guess it's just not our time." She shook her head sadly. I cupped her face in my hands and kissed her. It was light, but loving. "Goodbye Jennifer." I whispered walking away.

In that moment, I truly wanted to die.

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