Have you ever reached the stars?

Chapter 12

Hope

"Yes, right there. Oh, it feels so good. Add a little more pressure Jax, I can take it. Oh God yes." With my eyes closed, I lay completely naked enjoying his magic hands. "Mmmm, yes."

"Maybe you should keep it down a little Hope. We are going to give your neighborς' the wrong impression." I turn my head to look at him and there he is smiling with his brow raised. He is so smart and has the great comebacks always. I might be a little jealous of this ability of his. Together we could have made a great team if he was into marketing or if I still had my job.

"Fuck the neighbors. It's your fault I am in pain and I need a backrub now. What were you thinking having me sleep in a sleeping bag in the forest? Everything hurts." I can feel him shaking from laughter and I can't help but smile as well burying my head in the pillow.

"You could have said you didn't want to go, you know. But I don't remember you complaining when I suggested it or when I was fucking your brains out last night." My cheeks burn from embarrassment but I refuse to let him see me. He is right though. Last night was amazing. When he told me we were going on a camping trip, I instantly agreed. I am no foreigner to camping but it's been too long since the last time I slept in a tent. I guess I am getting too old for this kind of adventure.

"You feel so good Jax. Harder Jax, just like that. Don't you dare stop. Make me cum again Jax....." making fun of my accent and repeating some of my words from last night has me laughing like crazy. I will never get tired of him making me laugh. I really think that's one of my favorite things about him and the bastard knows it and takes advantage of it every single time.

"Okay, okay I give up. Help me get up now. Luanne is coming back from her grandparents' today and she told me she will come by. I need to get dressed and you need to leave." shaking his head he offers me his hand but reminds me that he doesn't agree with my insistence on keeping this a secret from her.

I can't blame him for that either and I feel awful. It's been three weeks and I haven't found the courage to tell her that I am seeing Jax. We almost got caught the other night when we accidentally bumped into Luanne at that fancy restaurant he took me on our first date. On seeing her from outside of the restaurant, I pulled Jax abruptly, pushing him towards the back alley. He was completely calm, leaning against the wall while I was watching Luanne talking with some other women. I felt so bad for having to do this, but still did it which infuriated Jax. Trying to apologize to him for my irrational fear and anxiety I found myself pinned against the wall and well........ let's just say that angry and disappointed Jax is even hotter.

"I will talk to her once I come back from my trip." Scanning through my wardrobe, I pick up a pair of shorts and a T-shirt while I watch him leave the room. He is still disappointed in me I guess. I can't seem to do anything right with him and although we are not in a relationship I really want him to like me and be happy with me.

Once I am dressed and ready I walk down the stairs and find him in the kitchen. Before I have the chance to speak, he offers me a mug and motions for me to sit down. He follows right after and stays silent, just looking at me. I don't know what to say or do in order to justify myself. I know it's stupid and childish and that it bothers him but I don't want to let Luanne down as well.

Whatever happened in the past is still haunting her. One night while she was slightly tipsy she confessed how Jax's brother was the love of her life. She was positive that they would end up getting married and have a family together. After he passed away, everything changed for her. She never loved anyone else and spends her time with different men trying to fill the void in her heart, as she mentioned.