My Heart (WangXian)

Ch. 17 Back Home & Sharing Memories

A/N I'm back with another Chapter. We will have quite a bit happen in this Chapter. We will have our two couples and their sons return home.  Return of littles. Reunions, sharing of memories,etc.. And not necessarily in that order. I hope you all enjoy🤗
So without further ado here's the next chapter coming at you now.

Lan Zhan's POV

We are now about a week and a half away from Cloud recesses. And it's not quite dawn. But I'm up and for now just enjoying his warmth and weight on my chest. This is where he belongs. Where he has always belonged. I feel the corners of my mouth tilt upwards. I look over where our son is still sleeping in his cot. It's not yet 5. And he will be up either at 5 or 5:30am. He does so well being up at that time despite being so young. It still amazes me how Wei Ying tried so hard to teach him Lan sect rules when he cant remember many of them. Jin Ling also taught A Liang Lan sect rules despite not really knowing the rules himself. When I asked why they made such an effort. Wei Ying said we taught them what we  could knowing that if things were the way they were supposed to be you, and Sizhui would be the ones teaching them the rules. And it still amazes me. It also amazes me that boys will try so hard to follow the rules even if they dont really understand the rules. I rub my Qīzi's face with my hand gently. He hasn't had his normal sleeping routine in so long. Even now though I let him sleep he will get up around 8 now instead of 10am. And he is often tired later in the day since he is up earlier. But he never complains I just can tell. I think today I will put a sleeping talisman on him and take it off when it's around 10am. Then maybe he will have enough rest. I then run my fingers through his soft and silky hair gently. My precious Bunny, my beautiful Qīzi, the wonderful Māmā of my two sons, I love you with every fiber of my being. I love you so much, you and my two sons. I also love my grandson. Both of the two boys are adorable.

It's now dawn and around 5am. I carefully slide out from under my Qīzi.  He does not stir, he is still sound asleep. I make sure he is dressed properly in his robes. I also make sure my forehead ribbon is tied securely around his wrist. His red forehead ribbon is tired securely around my wrist. He tied it there himself last night just before we did our everyday activity. It's where it has been for a little over two years. I gently place a sleeping talisman on his back and activate it. Now you will get more sleep my love. I hear movement and I look and its my son waking up. "Bàba it time be up right?" He asks. "Yes it's time." I tell him getting up. "Māmā tired?" He asks. "Yes. Māmā is tired. Let him sleep." I tell him. "Okay Bàba." He says. I feel the corners of my mouth go upward a little. "Now meditate little one." I tell him. "Okay Bàba." He says and gets into Lotus position. He does that and closes his eyes. I get in position as well. Then I  close my eyes and focus.

A little later

"No! Dont! Stop please!" I hear Wei Ying cry out in his sleep. I open my eyes and stop meditating. "Please Stop! I dont want this!" He cries out. And a twinge of pain go through my heart. Why is he forced to see that in his sleep? I can see the dark mists of resentful energy surround him and go in out of his head. Why does it have to torment him so much? He cries out like he is in pain and I know what he is forced to relive. For he showed me his memories. I go over to him. "Māmā in pain?" A Guang asks. "No. He is just remembering a pain from his past. He is not actually feeling it." I tell him. Not sure if he could understand. He is still so young. "The dark mist hurt him so much,  he and Biâomèi." He says. And I wonder why the resentful energy also clings to and torments Jin Ling, he doesnt cultivate through Demonic Cultivation. He cultivates the normal way with his sword Suihua. Sizhui doesnt know either. Though I think they suspect that Wei Ying doesnt have a core. They all but said it that day near the beginning of our journey back. My Qīzi didnt tell them. Not because he doesnt trust them but because he doesn't want to worry them. Wei Ying cries out more and more in his sleep. I  reach out and grasp his arm. I rub it. And I start sing WangXian to him softly. Wanting to reach him through the darkness and pain of the memory he is being forced to relive in his sleep. I'm here love and you are safe. No one is going to hurt you anymore. Soon he starts to calm down in his sleep. No longer thrashing about, no longer crying out or fighting an unseen man in his sleep. That's right my precious Bunny you are safe. I sing the whole song for him as he is now sleeping peacefully. I gently rub the side of his beautiful face as I finish the song I had written for him. "There are words to that song?" A Guang says. "Mmmnnn? Had Māmā sung that song for you?" I ask him. "Māmā play that song sometime for me. But it never had words. Just the music." He says. Wei Ying you played our song for our son? "Māmā doesn't remember the words or name of the song. Just the tune. But those words I sang are the words to it." I tell him. "It pretty. Me always like the song. Me like it more now. Why Māmā not remember the words?" He says and asks. "When Māmā was a child someone hurt him very much in the head. Now there is alot Māmā doesn't remember." I tell him. "Why so many people hurt Māmā?! Māmā good. Why he have to be hurt so much?" He asks. "I dont know little one. It isnt fair. He should never be hurt. And you're right he is good. He is so good. But the world can be cruel even to good people. It isnt fair." I tell him. And he looks so upset. And I can understand. Wei Ying has been hurt so much in his life before and after his death and was brought back. And it truly isnt fair.