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Try not to skip the decriptive  portions.  I have written a very sweet moment in the descriptive portion specifically in the last paragraph.

Anokhi- Koi itna supportive kaise ho sakta hai?

Shaurya- Bakiyon ka nhi pata par Shaurya Sabbarwaal toh hai. Khair now let's get you something to eat. The baby is still within you. Maybe won't be there soon but abhi toh hai.  And right now we need to take care of you.

Anokhi- Shaurya bhookh nhi hai.

Shaurya- Anokhi you have to eat.

Anokhi- I am too stressed.

Shaurya- Yeah but not eating  won't help. Your sugar is going  to drop. You are going to get sicker which is going to make it more difficult for you and me both mentally. What do you want to have?

Anokhi- Tabiyat theekh nhi lagri. I feel so sick.

Shaurya- Achaa juice lekar aata hoon. Tab tak Aisha rahegi.

Anokhi-Please stay. I can't be without you. I need you. I know mein demanding ho rhi hoon but ek din ruk jao.

Shaurya- Arre bas juice lekar aata hoon. And mein hoon until you don't recover completely from the abortion.

Anokhi- Shaurya kab karenge? Darren lag rha hai. Exams bhi hai. Taiyarri bhi karni hogi.

Shaurya- Anokhi tum bohot shocked ho fillable aur beemar bhi. Yeh kaise, kab karenge kal doctor se baat karne ke baad decide karenge. Tab tak yeh mat socho tum. Ok ek kaam karta hoon I will request Aisha to get you juice. Tum halat mein nhi ho abhi. You need me.

He calls Aisha who agrees immediately to  get some juice and glucose. Anokhi has that. Shaurya helps her pack all her stuff up and they leave for a hotel so that Anokhi can have Shaurya around.  Shaurya makes Anokhi lie down and orders  dinner for her. He feeds her with his own hands. Anokhi doesn't speak much. He gives her the space. That day night as the lights  went off, Shaurya and Anokhi settled on bed a little  bit away from each other. Both were looking  at the ceiling, trying to digest the news. Shaurya was sad and heartbroken to let go of the baby, Anokhi had mixed feelings.  She was intimidated by the thought  of an abortion  procedure. She was feeling for the baby. She knew she didn't  want to have a baby. She was going crazy by the minute with all of these emotions. Before she knew it she had started to cry. Shaurya was in his own world and didn't hear her initially. After sometime he could  hear her whimpers.

Shaurya- Anokhi! Kya hua jaan! Anokhi!

He rushes towards her but she pushes him away.

Anokhi- I came close to you that day night. I brought this upon us. I wish I  hadn't......

Shaurya- Do you seriously think ki tumhare iss haal mein I was trying to....

He moves away.

Anokhi- No Shaurya. I am subjecting  you to so much pain. Agar uss din mein tumhari baat mann leti toh I wouldn't have conceived. You would  not have to face the difficult decision of having  to letting  go your baby. You deserve better.

Shaurya- Yes I do. And I am going  to have it some day. Just not now. And we took precautions. It happened by mistake.  Don't have to feel guilty.

Anokhi- But I do. I am broken. I am feeling so much. I don't know itna kaise koi feel kar sakta hai. Mein pagal ho jaungi.

Shaurya- No! No! Sssshhh. Khud ko time do. Don't need to feel guilty. Tumhari galti nhi hai. Bas situation  hai. Relax. It's a night. Every night will pass. It will get better. Come here.

He hugs her. Slowly Anokhi drifts off to sleep.

Shaurya (In his mind)- Anokhi I  wish tumhe protect kar pata. But I also wish you to see my baby. I wish to have my family.  But there is no family without you. I hope Anokhi sab theekh hi Jaye. Tum fir se muskurane lago.

Next day he found her puking in the washroom.  She didn't call him as she knew it was hard for him. She didn't want him to have the pregnancy experience anymore as soon it's not going  to be there.

Shaurya- I know what you are trying  to do. But selfish mat ban. Mujhe bhi teri pregnancy adhoori hi sahi mehsoos karne de.

He helps her, comforting  her and then gets her to bed. He serves her breakfast in which he made a smiley himself with cream. Anokhi finally smiles looking at that coffee with a smiley. After breakfast they go to the doctor who suggests Anokhi to abort after her exams as abortion causes cramps and bleeding. Shaurya decides to stay with her for the entire duration. Anokhi is a nerve wreck after she hears this as she will carry the baby for longer. But the explosion is inside her head. She maintains a calm front for Shaurya. She was crumbling within but she on the surface holds it together.  Here Shaurya didn't  know what to tell at his home. His family was starting to get very worried about Anokhi. He didn't know what to do. The whole thing was a shock for him. Taking care of Anokhi's physical health and coming to terms with all of this drained at his energies. He still tried to talk to her but Anokhi was very elusive.  They had fought as well only to make up soon but Anokhi was still shut to him. He was also scared that he would  breakdown when she would open up to him. So he didn't pursue her much. He started to feel guilty too. Both were going through a lot. Anokhi would struggle to study for exams. She would still not give up. Sometimes she would work through the night. This would anger Shaurya.  Both were trying to get better of the situation. One day when Shaurya had gone to the reception, he came back to find Anokhi talking to the baby. She was apologizing profusely. Shaurya was in tears seeing her like that. He didn't know how to go in front of her without starting to cry. He just left the room, deciding to give her privacy. He don't know if it was the right thing that he did or should he have sat beside her and talked with her to their unborn child. But sometimes it's not about right or wrong because there is no right or wrong, it's just about what you can do. Somehow the exams got over. Anokhi had still managed to not show her emotions in front of Shaurya. The next day was the day for the procedure. They both were scared but both put up a fearless front.

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