Thingolwenkosazana:Choosen For Me

part 17

Philangazwe

I walk to the praying room and get inside the last time we were hear I wasn't okay and here I am again with a problem I've been bringing her problems since she met me and honestly I feel like it gets to much for her I guess there is still a long way to go for us I remove my shoes lite one white candle that's new and burn some incense

"Ndodana is me your father Nkosana Mnguni I came here to give you some milk I don't know why you had to leave us and why you left that way I'm sorry I couldn't protect you I failed as a father but I will make it right I hope you look over your brother's and mother we still don't know what happend to you but just know I'm sorry son and I love you" I instantly feel cold hair and a small hand holding me I smile cause my heart feels at ease I'm glad I'm happy to say the least I really am I stand and walk outside I see that fucker Tumelo and his wife she seems off cause that smile is fake I feel a tap on my shoulder I look it's Mpendulo

"Sho bafo I'm sorry I wasn't there how are you holding up "

"I'm okay just confused as to why my son had to die like that and why was his existence not known ...but we still have the other two I don't know if mama bear is taking it well she only cried once and she has been there with me on the other two days so I'm not sure how that is going" he looks at me smiling then looks towards Tumelo and the wife

"Does she know or does he know?"I just shrug

"Angazi let me get our bags so we leave we will travel in the same car angithi so your women helps with the baby we will leave them at home and we will go to Gumede place there at Vryheid so we rest before the meeting"

"Okay let me know when you done I need to speak with baba anyway " we fist bump and I walk up to the room she's not there I sit on the bed and wait for her

"Ohh...you hear I didn't hear you" I jump a little she scared me "ohh sorry If I scared you what's wrong" she says sitting down

"Do you also wonder what happened to baby three cause I wanna know what really happened"I say she looks down and starts looking around does she know something "are you hiding something from me?" She looks away wow

"I'm sorry..."

"So you knew that we having triplets and you didn't tell me" I'm so calm right now

"No I didn't I swear" she says walking towards me I  stop her

"Then what you sorry about speak"I say sitting on the couch that's here she sits next to me and holds my hands I try to push her off but she holds on so tight and she cries I look at the side

"Your mother came and told me he was not ment to live he had to die he was the ancestors children he protected his siblings from all the harm they were put in an that the Mnguni ancestors claimed him cause they knew he won't be able to live the life given to him he would have killed himself so rather now then later I'm sorry I didn't tell you cause I felt like you would have blamed yourself or father but it was no one's fault at all it just happened that way that's why I only cried once"she says crying so all this time I thought I'm to blame but those stupid ancestors done this why me out of all people I really don't understand whats really going on

"So you thought it's best to be quiet and not say anything until i asked"I look at her and she is quite " Thingolwenkosazane say something cause your silence or tears aren't moving me speak " she just cries I walk out and she's following me crying I'm looking for my kids and I get to the lounge everyone is there I see Mpendulo

"Bafo we ready to leave I will just get the bags so we can go" I say

"Phila please I'm....I'm sorry okay"she is crying and they all looking at me