Thingolwenkosazana:Choosen For Me

part 37

Thingolwenkosazana

We just had lunch and we chilling in the lounge when Mpendulo clears his throat we all look at him my husband sits next to me

"Uhmm you know mama asked me to read the letter for you guys and she also left one with Nkosana because she felt like it will be best if his the one that reads the other letter"he says

"What I don't understand is mah doing all this why couldn't she just tell us from the beginning"Langa says

"She has a reasons please proceed I need to get back home"Zikhali says his been off since he got here  Mpendulo nods and open the letter

"I'm sorry that I had to do things this way but I guess it was for my heart interest and what I saw best for me I would like to thank you Nkosana  for talking me into opening up to my family it really means a lot to me

My life has never been easy I faced obstacles the day I met your father my life took a turn I lost my lived ones because I loved a man well I was arranged to marry a deacon well his son but then I chose your father my Zulu man I told my parents and my dad said he would approve if him when they meet and that didn't go well because your father was a typical Zulu man believed in his ancestors while my dad was s church guy I told him I will go where my life leads  me and I done so with out looking back not even once and he disowned me he went as far as removing his details in me my mother supported me but when that threatend her marriage she let me loose and I was chased out if my family home well my sister Ndu mother was so happy about that because she wanted to deacon herself but then he rejected her. I moved out and lived with a friend until your father came for me we lived together until we had our love child Zikhali that's when your father decided to make things right but my family didn't budge while we lived in our own circle and then I was struck by tragedy that almost broke me and my marriage but we made it through years later I had my twins that restored my marriage I was so happy that I felt like the gods answered my prayers I had my perfect family until I heard my mother was no more went there only do find out I'm the mistress daughter I asked about my biological mother turns out my father had an affair with the deacons wife and I'm the product but after labour she died and I was given to my dad's wife I was grateful to have a step mother like her during the funeral preparations I was treated badly to a point where my father sent people to attack my husband and I when I got to the hospital I found out I lost my baby I was broken went home and my husband changed he abused me in everyway well through that abuse I fell pregnant with Thingo when I gave birth I felt peace the burden that was on my shoulders was lifted I was happy and content about everything she was my rainbow hence the name Thingo I made sure I hid the abuse from my son's at all times but it ate me up at night

Happiness again until Zwane got into the picture that man ruined everything for me took me back to the place of misery he controlled my husband that guy made my husband his puppet and it destroyed us it damaged me I couldn't stand up for my children because I was controlled and because I didn't have a place to go to but then when Nkosana met Thingo it was a blessing and I curse the problems he brought the drama but I was glad that my daughter won't have to deal with Zwane until Nkosana landed her in hospital I thought history was repeating it's self but the boy proved me wrong in all that my son's where always protected that why I didn't bother myself my my daughter I was afraid for her

When Zwane started touching me because I refused for him to touch my daughy I thought my husband would have fought it but no he simply said "you doing it for the family"and that broke me my love turned into hate the more j lived for him the more evil I became while Zwane was feasting on me" Mpendulo then sighs

"I am a rape child"I say then laugh "all along I thought mama hated me but she was protecting me" I say

"I failed to see that our family is broken"Zikhali says