If I Told You [Completed]

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SO THANK YOU TO EVERYONE THAT HAS READ THIS!!! I WANT TO SAY THAT I LOVE ALL OF YOU AND I DONT CARE HOW MANY READS THIS GETS BECAUSE I SERIOUSLY LOVE EVERYONE WHO READS THIS.

i fell in love with this story a while ago, probably when i wrote the argument scene ngl. but if you didnt notice, this story is actually based off of me and one of my friends (uhm my goddamn crush on the internet who broke my heart in the end) so he's gone, but i really realllyyyyy wanted to finish writing this because who the fuck cares about him omg.

so, i wrote this story as a kind of hm not really coping because i wrote it when he was still here but maybe a little coping because i got pissed everyday that I couldn't meet him. so it was a coping mechanism a little bit, but towards the end it was really a coping mechanism because we both had school and because of different timezones, we never had time to call or talk anymore. so even after i had finished the original story (ending with the wedding) i started writing random scenes with the two of them and just adding them because i was so sad that i finished it so early.

To those of you who dont know, he was one of my closest friends and now he's gone and blocked me and deleted all our messages together (its discord so i cant see his messages anymore) and i just...fuck i keep dreaming that he came back and then i wake up and he's gone again. its like the pain of him leaving but every goddamn morning.

I think that writing this was honestly the best part about the school year. writing this story was an escape from reality and the world that we live in. i started writing this in probably late july and finished it in november, and adding the bonus chapters after that. which technically finished late december. i dont think i could ever write another story that is like this, since all the emotions are in this story. this story actually had so many things that i would never tell anyone, but to anyone who doesnt know this is based off of me, they just think its Stephanie. 

so with that being said, im glad that i have finished this, and i hope to actually write more original stories (if i can even do it because of my shitass motivation)

so have a good day, byeeeee