+Positive+ The Second Trimester |PJM Fanfiction |

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(Jimin's POV)

"Jimin, nice to see you again."

"Nice to see you too..."

"I know I say this everyday when we meet, but how are things?"

Nervously nibbling on the inside of his lip and lightly grinning Jimin shifts on the black leather couch facing his therapist, his heart warming recalling his evening.

"Things are good...good...um...we...m-my girlfriend and I...were intimate last night...for the first time since...well you know the story..."

"Wow, that's quite the milestone. How did you feel?"

"Um...at first...I felt on top of the world I guess...then...I'll admit...I cried..."

"Why do you think you cried?"

"....I was scared..."

"Scared?"

Looking down at the floor and picking at his fingernails Jimin's grin falls into a somber frown, his voice lowering into a soft whisper as he refuses to meet his therapist's curious gaze.

"I...was scared...of falling back into those old habits...I was scared...th-that once it was all done...I would lose my feelings for her...."

"Did you?"

"No...actually...she woke up and heard me crying I think and she came to my side...when I finally snapped out of it I saw her face and...I got so overwhelmed..."

"Why did you feel overwhelmed?"

"....Because actually...I was scared of losing my feelings for her...when in fact they got so much stronger...when I saw her face it was like the biggest breath of fresh air...and now...I know for a fact she's the only person I want to be with...ever again...in fact I can't wait to leave here and go back to her..."

I feel so great right now...I feel horrifically vulnerable...but it feels so great...

"It's natural to feel some anxiety about stepping back into a part of your life you're trying to change, so your reaction was completely normal especially at this point in your healing. However it can also put into perspective just how much progress you have made. I'm proud of you for taking that extra step."

"Th-Thank you..."

"Do you still have reserves? About being intimate?"

"Um...n-not really I guess...I just asked her if we could wait a while until we do that again...I don't know...I guess it still kind of scares me."

"It's natural, I'm glad you're being open about your feeling approaching this part of your life. Honestly Jimin in these months you've made many leaps and bounds in your progress and I haven't seen too many slip backs into old habits, it's admirable about your determination to change. I don't think you have many more sessions with me until you'll be done with the program."

"R-Really?...You think so?..."

"Mhm. We still have some things to work on, but I think you're moving right along at a very healthy pace. I forget to ask, does your girlfriend know that you're in therapy?"

"Yeah...I told her about it a long time ago...she was...one of the first people to know anyway..."

"Good. When you first came here you seemed almost embarrassed to be in my office, I'm happy to hear you becoming more open about things."

Nodding his head softly and shifting his feet Jimin lets out a gentle sigh, his mind wandering into deep thoughts as the therapist jots notes down in her notebook.