The day has gone by and it's almost night.
I seem to have lost track if time once again.
I haven't even looked at myself once since last night and my scars on my arms still bleed from the harsh scrubbing in the shower and the barbarous heat of the water yet I feel no guilt whatsoever because it doesn't feel wrong.
But neither does it feel right but it still feels like something that I don't want to stop feeling after all the overwhelming sadness and the cruel words from them .
I feel like I deserve it the pain the blood,yet I cannot blame them for all of it.
It was my mistake too after all not being good enough was the worst of them all.
The sky outside turns a shadow of purple just like the maze around my body and this deep ache in my chest hurts worst then the maze around my body itself.
Will this pain stop or am I bound to Invisibly shackles that never break or is it just my mind itself.
