And I'm not in love and that bothers me rather greatly cos being in love is the only part which makes me feel human.
It makes me feel as if I am an alive being rather then a rotting corpse that keeps going.
Maybe being in love with someone is something I need like a cigarette or coffee.
I sound unreal to myself.
I sound insane but I ponder all day long about it and there is no one in mind and my heart it feels caged and dead because it's not racing anymore at the thought of anyone.
I'm not in love and it bothers me that i feel nothing for no one.
No lust
No longing
No worry.
It feels like having a stone in my chest.
By God it greatly bothers me to not be In love.
