I'm Finally Wanted

Chapter 24

(Listening to the song does make things better, but don't listen to it if you don't want to)

Maranda and I are just talking about random things, when my door bursts open, and there stands Tyler.

He looks really rough. He hasn't shaved in a while, so he has a little baby beard. His eyes are all bloodshot. He looks like he's lost a lot of weight, which is concerning because he never had much fat to loose to begin with. I see some grey hairs, no doubt caused by stress. He seems like he has a few wrinkles on his face. Before I can even say a word he's got his arms wrapped around me as he hugs the air right out of my lungs. Maranda takes this as her cue to leave, and she waves bye as she quietly leaves Tyler and I by ourselves.

I don't even realize Tyler's crying until my hospital gown is soaked. I just keep my arms around Tyler as I run my hands up and down his back. I have no idea how alone he must have felt. I'm not sure how long I was gone for, but I must have been a very long time. Not to mention Tyler had to go through the loss of our child while also worrying about me never waking up. Of course I'm sad about our baby dying, I'm devastated I lost our child. But, maybe it was for the best. I realized my body is in no means capable of growing a healthy baby. I barely gave birth to the twins without them dying. And everything happens for a reason, so if our baby died it must have been for the better. And I'll get to see my baby in heaven.

I'm sure Tyler stayed hugging me for at least like 2 hours. Not that I minded. I missed him too.

"Raven, I'm- I'm so sorry." Tyler cries into my shoulder. "I- I gave up hope. I didn't believe you would've woken up. I gave up on you."

"Don't apologize baby. Maranda told me all about it. No one thought I would wake up, and that's ok. It doesn't matter anymore because I'm here now."

Tyler pulls away from me and just examines my face as he sits on my bed holding my hands. Then his tears start to form all over again. "I couldn't save them. Our baby-"

"It's ok Tyler." I whisper cutting Tyler off. "I know about it. I could feel it."

"I'm so sorry Raven." Tyler says as his tears start falling down his face again.

I hold out my arms for him, and he falls right into them. This was me not too long ago, crying helplessly as Tyler just held me, now the roles are reversed.

I can't imagine what Tyler must have felt, watching me slowly slip from this world. He was by himself. I know for a fact I'm the only person keeping him sane. I know that I'm probably the only thing keeping Tyler here. If it weren't for our kids, I'd be the only thing tyler lives for. If I were to die it we didn't have our kids, Tyler's kill himself. I know that because I'd do the same. I'd be miserable in a world without Tyler. Which makes me really realize how Tyler must have been without me. If Tyler was the one in a coma, if Tyler was the one Steve took, I'd loose my mind.

...

I forced Tyler to take a nap, since he clearly hadn't slept in a long while. After just holding each other for a long while more, I told him he had to sleep before I'd talk to him anymore. Cruel, I know. But it got the job done. Which is why Tyler is now sleeping like a baby, with his arms wrapped around me. This little twin sized bed isn't the best size for two people, but we made it work.

My door creaks open, and I lady sticks her head in.

"Oh my gosh you really are awake!" She exclaims. Then slaps her hand over her mouth. "Sorry, I was just checking on Tyler, I-I'll leave."