Always you.

Chapter One.

"Oh come on Y/N!! It will be fun! I never usually have to convince you to go out??"Alyssa,my bestfriend, basically screams at me.

Dont get me wrong I love Alyssa to bits, We've been friends for a really long time.We became friends When we was around 7 or maybe 8. We went through school together, every step of the way, shes the closest thing to a sister I have.Im 26 now, you do the maths. She lived next door to me I wont lie, I thought she was pretty strange at first but once I got to know her she wasn't so bad i guess.

"Lyss, you know how i've been lately... too many people freak me out" i slightly cringe at the thought of having to be around too many strangers.

"I know but it will be so funnn and to help yourself get over these panic attacks you've been having, you have to do the things you dont like to get better." she whines as she gives me puppy dog eyes.

"Well duh, I know that, I am so greatful that you are thinking of me just because its my birthday it doesn't mean we HAVE to go out you know. Im fine just staying home and getting drunk off my ass here" I shrug and point to the big empty room around us.

Alyssa opens the fridge and stands on her tippy toes to grab a bottle of MY waters. Cheeky bitch. She slowly closes the fridge and turns around on her heels with a cheeky grin. The grin i love to see but hate at the same time.

"You never know, you might see someone to take home" she says winking at me as she is opening the bottle that looks too big for her tiny hands.

I love going out dont get me wrong,most of the time the girls are all over me, I love it but sometimes its too much, 9 times out of 10 someone will be coming home with me though,im pretty sure most of them only do it because they know who i am. I dont stay in conctact with most of them,not from choice, they are usually gone by the time I wake up the next morning. Apart from Lydia, she comes round every now and then and I dont think it takes a genius to figure out what happens after that. Most girls ive met in clubs have been very understanding of my little well, not little very...big... friend down there. Only a few have been a little less understanding. I've always wanted to settle down, have a family, maybe some kids one day but i've not found the right person. Mums always on my case about finding someone,she wants grandkids so badly and as im her only child, the pressure is on.

"Okay you know what, we can go but i cant promise i will stay for long okay." I sigh as I give in,once again, to this crazy woman.

"Yay!!! Thank you thank you thank you" she says smiling as she runs over to me and engulfs me in a tight hug. I laugh slightly and hug her back. I look down at the small brown haired girl and give her forehead a little kiss. We've always been pretty clingy like this i guess.
As we break away from the hug i check my phone for the time.

"Shit" i mumble quietly to myself.

"Hm?" Alyssa questions whilst rocking back and fourth on her feet like a little toddler.

"Its 2:10 i was meant to be at the gym by 2:00 its going to take me atleast another 10 minutes to walk there, my cars still having work done." I explain whilst mentally slapping myself.

"I can just drop you off its not a problem! Also peter lives close to the area so maybe ill see him around" she quickly replies as she looks into space as if  she's daydreaming about him again.
I roll my eyes before clicking my fingers in her face.

"You know hes no good for you Lyss, when are you finally going to realise that?" I say as I make my way up the stairs to put on something more comfy to work out in.

"Blah blah blah" she shouts back from the kitchen.

I make my way into my slightly messy room. Jeez i need to tidy this soon. Good thing mums not here to see it,she would kill me...
I jog into my walk in closet and grab the closest things possible, a plain black tank top and a pair of grey joggers.