Always you.

Chapter Twenty-Three.

Scarlett's POV:

I rest my head upon her door for the third time this week and wait for an answer or even any sign of her being in there.
"Y/N come on please, if you're in there at least make a noise so I know you are okay. Please."
I beg once more as I wipe the few tears sliding down my cheek. I receive nothing but silence.
"You don't even have to speak to me right now, all I want is to know that you're okay and safe."
Alyssa has reached out once or twice and told me that she's okay but I refuse to believe her untill I see Y/N in person.

I've thought about what happened last week and I understand why she is upset. It was wrong of me to not tell her the truth about mine and Colin's situation, she deserves an explanation.
I knock one last time before giving up, wishing for a response but yet nothing. I sigh and drag my sorry ass back to the car and head home.

I shortly arrive back home and spend the rest of the morning listening to music and cleaning the house, ready for Rose to return from mom's house. I try my hardest not to think about Y/N but I just can't help it... I've never seen her that emotional before, the look in her eyes that morning it was scary I can't lie, I've never seen that look on her. I feel so shitty about the whole thing. Ever since she left that day, something in me has felt... empty? I feel cold. Like I need to be with her I can't function properly.
  Just as I start to let my mind get lost in the music, a knock on the door catches me off guard causing me to jump. Maybe its Y/N! Maybe she finally wants to talk.  I turn off my music and drop the trash bag I have in my hand and rush over to the door.

I open the door with a big smile on my face to see Alyssa standing opposite me. She looks worried and that's making me worry now. Has something happened? Is Y/N okay?
"Alyssa, hi! Is everything okay?" I cautiously question and step further out the door to join Alyssa outside.

"Scarlett you have to come and talk to her, the only place she has been going is the gym and she hasn't been eating or sleeping properly, she's not taking care of herself, I had to force her to stay on my couch so that I knew she was okay.. she's just so... angry and I don't know what more I can do for her and as much as I want to punch the hell out of you right now for hurting her, you're also the only person I can think of to pull her out of this dark hole she's in." She speaks out in one sentence, giving me a dirty look that is a little intimidating.
But, I pretty much do deserve that, If I was her I would punch the living daylights out of me too. Also, now I come to think about it, I really have been talking to myself all those times I showed up at her door..

I pull out my phone and check the time, praying that I have enough time to see Y/N before Rose comes home, which I don't.
"Okay well, I can't come today.. Rose will be home any minute, I haven't seen her in a few days and I miss her. I want to spend some time with her and Rose will always come first." I explain firmly.
As much as I miss Y/N and care about her, I will not drop everything with my daughter.
Alyssa rubs her hand against her forehead before speaking up again.
"What if I got her to come here? It might be mission impossible but It's worth a shot?" She suggests and smiles.
That's not a bad idea, that way I can still be with Rose but finally sort this problem out with Y/N and explain everything.
I nod my head and reply.
"Yeah if she is willing to come by, just message me and let me know okay?"

"Yeah okay, let's hope this works. I know what happy Y/N looks like and that isn't her right now, I've tried helping her but nothing I say or do seems to be working. I think the only person who can really help is you. I just worry about her you know?" Alyssa explains as she looks down at her feet.
She is such such a sweet girl, always taking care of Y/N, ready to bite anyones head off who dares hurt her. She really is Y/N's ride or die and it makes me happy to know that before I met Y/N she had someone to take care of her. As long as they don't fuck again, I would lose my shit. Wait. Am I a hypocrite for thinking that?
Anyways, back to the original point.
"I know, I swear I was going to tell her I really was. I regret it all. Whatever it is I have with Y/N right now is what I want, I don't want Colin I knew that the second I met Y/N in that damn coffee shop... I never refused to sign the divorce papers Colin was trying to get into her head like he does with everyone. He is a complete dick. Yes, I slept with him... maybe there was something left between us, but the second it was over, and trust me it didn't take very long, I knew that there was nothing left there anymore and I was glad about that... I want... I want Y/N. I knew that even before I slept with Colin." I quickly explain to Alyssa.
"Look, you shouldn't be saying any of this to me.. you should be saying it to her..."
Okay then, never mind. Of course I will tell all of this to Y/N, I just needed Alyssa to also know I'm not here to mess Y/N about. Thats the last thing I want to do.
"I just wanted to let you know how sorry I am so that you can finally stop giving me the death glare.. it's pretty terrifying." I joke and her face breaks into a small smile causing me to release a breath I didn't know I was holding onto.
"I wouldn't be doing my job correctly if I didn't scare the people who fuck Y/N over in life. I do think you're great for her but I'm still pissed at the fact you fucked her about. And you need to make it right and if you don't and she continues to be a miserable bitch, I'll personally come and egg your house." She explains as she points her finger at me. Very random thing to do I can't lie.