Always you.

Chapter Twenty-Eight.

TW: drinking, mentions of death, abuse and smoking.
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So, here I am outside Alyssa's house. She is definitely inside, the lights are on and two cars are sat in her driveway and I have a feeling it's Strawberry Shortcake again.
I look over to my right and grab the unopened bottle of Jack Daniel's and take a generous sip before taking a cigarette from the now open pack and lighting it up waiting for whoever is inside with Alyssa to leave. Yeah I'm smoking, It was all I used to do when I was younger also, who doesn't smoke when they have had a drink? Not like I'm going to get into the habit of doing it all the time, just gotta de-stress myself somehow.

   Finally, after about another 20 minutes of waiting, the mystery person leaves her house and of course my prediction was right, it's Mr. Shitty breath Jost. He smugly walks over to his car and speeds off. I take one last sip of the brown bottled liquid and make my way over to Alyssa's door. Taking one last drag of the third cigarette I've indulged into, I knock on the door as loud as I can repetitively.

"Okay what did you forge- Y/N?"

"Suprise!" I shout as I hold my hands up in the air and walk through the door.
"I know you was expecting Colin to come back, sorry to disappoint."
Alyssa hasn't said anything yet, shes shut the door but wont turn around to face me.

"Y/N you reek of booze and cigarettes-Have you been smoking?" She finally speaks up and turns to look at me.

"Don't act like you care. Why him? Why did you ignore me for no reason and then get all loved up with him!"  I ask fighting back the tears caused by my frustration building up inside me.

"Do you need me to call Scarlett? You need to stop before you say or do something you will regret." Alyssa says ignoring my questions.
I take a deep breathe in and sigh before speaking up again.

"Just answer my questions Alyssa! You know what he done to me! He exposed my whole past! Its all out there for the world to see! Now everyone knows how I lost my baby and my fiancé all in one night because of some obsessed creep who drove her car off a cliff. How her body sat at the bottom of that cliff for a week! Fuck! He even told everyone how my father would beat my mother black and blue everyday and if I tried to help her I would also be beaten, locked up in my room, starved! I would have to stay up there for days!"
I scream out not being able to control the tears streaming down my face anymore.
"So tell me, fucking tell me!! Why him!!!"

"Stop it Y/N you're just hurting yourself more by bringing it up again." Alyssa sighs.

"It doesn't go away anymore! Everytime I leave the house someone is always there asking me questions. Everyone online won't stop talking about it!"  I slur out again as I lean on the wall for some support, okay the alcohol didn't help. Slightly regretting it now.

"I'm going to call Scarlett. She can be the one to deal with this because I'm not." She says as she grabs her phone from the counter and walks out of the room with the phone up to her ear.

Hold on. The only person who knows these things were Alyssa to begin with. Shes the only person I ever told. And now shes suddenly close with Colin who magically knows these things... How did I not notice?! How dumb can I be? Am I really that slow?!
I push myself off the wall and stumble into the living room where Alyssa is.

"It was you!" I announce and point a finger at Alyssa.

"I... I uh I don't know what you're... what you're talking about, Y/N you are drunk and Scarlett is on her way." She stutters.

"You told Colin everything! How did I not know it was you! It makes so much sense! Holy shit!" I spit out, shocked at my own realisation.

"Yes! It was me! I'm so sorry Y/N/N..."
She cries.