SpiderBishop

Part 17

*TW: mentions of alcoholism*
2 months later
*KATES POV*

It had been 2 months since that woman died, I hadn't forgiven myself and honestly I didn't think I will ever, in the early days of my absence from the others I'd occasionally message Pete saying I was ok but as the days became weeks and those weeks became months I had spoken to him less and less, Jack would slip a plate of food under my door since I didn't come down often unless it was for alcohol, as much as I hated it I had turned to alcohol to deal with that woman's death and the absence of Pete in my life, at first It had become a small thing, a glass every few days but as my guilt became stronger I had started drinking more and more, Jack tried stopping me at first but seeing my condition he didn't try again afterwards, I hadn't washed since that day either, I had been told by Jack to take better care of myself but I didn't care anymore, I didn't care if the next day I had alcohol poisoning or died in my sleep, I want to crawl back into petes arms and feel his warmth against me but after all this would he even recognise me? I had pondered the thought of calling him and meeting up with him but I could never bring myself, I was ashamed of who I had become.

*PETERS POV*

I woke up and turned to my side and mumbled "morning babe" I then felt the cold side that Kate would be, should be in, I rub my eyes before putting an oversized hoodie and slouchy trousers on, I looked in the mirror and saw myself, I looked ghostly, I had dark bags under my eyes and my skin was as pale as it could possibly be, I go to head out of my room but see the arrow bracelet I was going to give Kate before she ran away, my every thought from the moment I woke to the moment I slept was Kate, I had been so worried when she ran off, even 2 months later the only thing on my mind was Kate. I picked the bracelet up and slowly pressed my lips to it, i left my room and went to the living room, I slumpt down on the sofa and stayed there in silence, the others knew how much Kate means to me so as much as they wanted to cheer me up they would leave me be unless they were asking if I wanted something to eat or drink, I hadn't realised I had started crying until I felt someone wrap their arms around me and wipe my tears away "thanks wands" I say resting my head on her shoulder "no problem, want anything?" she says releasing her grip around me "glass of water please" I say as she uses her powers to float a glass over to me, I nod my head as a non-verbal thank you and start drinking the water.

*KATES POV*

I see a plate of food slide under my door with a small note that says enjoy, I pick the plate up and put it next to the bottle of alcohol on my bedside table "thank you" I don't get a response from Jack, I sit on my bed and take the sandwich from the plate and take a bite. After finishing the sandwich I take a sip from the alcohol bottle and lay against the back of my bed, I turn on the TV in my room and watch it, I see the headline is about spider man which makes me drop a single tear, I turn off the TV and grab my phone, ok I have to, I can't just chicken out this time, I take a few deep breaths as the video call shows my appearance, I look like hell, I knew it was bad but I never knew it was this bad, my hear is all tangly and messy my eyes have bags under them my eyes are bloodshot, I take another bite of my sandwich as I wait for him to pick up, the phone answers and I see him and he looks like hell "holy shit pete/Kate, you look awful are you OK?" we say practically in sync with each other "no, not really, I-I really want to see you" I say, my voice was coarse and rough but he understood it all "me too" we stare at our phone screens not really sure what to say "I'm sorry I-I can't do this, I love you Pete" I say before hanging up, for fuck sake! Why did I do that!? I slumb back down on my bed and take a long big sip from the bottle, at this point alcohol tastes terrible to me but I can't help it, I've drunk it for so long that if I stopped I think I'd crumble under the weight of everything that's happened in the past months.

*PETERS POV*

"I'm sorry I-I can't do this, I love you Pete" is the last thing Kate says before hanging up, i pocket my phone before seeing my suit from the room, I pick it up and think, patrol always helps when I'm feeling conflicted, ill do that, I first wash and then put my suit on, I walk downstairs, where everyone is sat around "looking good Pete" Clint says looking at me before returning his attention to the video call he was on with his family "feeling good" I say feeling a lot better, I vault out the window before swinging to the city.

Overall I had stopped a few muggings and stopped a dick from robbing a car, I also helped the churo lady from 8 years ago, I had stopped being spider man after my guilt of letting Kate down and let her run away, I had forgotten how good it felt to help people, I was now laying in a Web hammock I had made and was scrolling through my phone until it started ringing "spider man, it's yuri, sorry to keep contacting like this but it's urgent" I flip backwards so I'm now stuck against the wall with my phone pressed against my shoulder and head so I could refill my web shooters "lay it on me" just as I say that the building that was once avengers tower blew up "did you see that!?" yuri says through the phone "yeah, on it" I say hanging up, putting my phone away and start swinging to the building.

Hey everyone, hope you enjoyed the chapter and hope you've all had a good day, sorry if alcoholism is a sensitive subject but I put a trigger warning so hopefully if it does you didn't get too agitated, anyway their are only 3 chapters left, I am no longer taking requests since I have a plan for the next 3 chapters, but who knows I might write a sequel at some point.
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